Loving him is so wrong!

Part 2 Chapter 12

Alana
Ah don't you just love when your past haunts you? Don't you like when you do stupid things drunk and it bites you in the ass afterwards? Anyone? Just me huh. Well it's biting me and I hate it. I love Levi hell I was in love with Levi at a point. I think at least.He was everything Chandler wasn't and I was scared of settling down back then. Now I don't want to change it. I don't ever not want Chandler in my life. I'm a dumb idiot I shouldn't have done it but I was drunk and let my emotions get the best of me.
"Mommy can we wake daddy up?" Aidan asked
"No. Leave him alone and eat your muffin that you begged for." I said
"I'm already up. Some random child won't stop poking me" Chandler said smiling down at Aidan.
I laughed and then got Chandler's coffee together. I put the cream in and then sugar. I mixed it together and gave it to him. I let him sip it to tell me if it was fine or not.
"Damn ma you put enough sugar in here?" Chandler said laughing. I laughed too and grabbed the extra coffee and poured it in there. He mixed it and nodded letting me know it was good. I took his coffee from him and gave him his breakfast so he could eat. Once Chandler was settled and eating I smiled at him. I love this man with everything in me and I'll be damn if anyone fucks this up. Including myself! Chandler reached for my stomach to rub my invisible bump and smiled.
"I hope you know you're having another boy."
"Oh really you think so?" I said
"I can feel it my final baby boy." Chandler said while caressing my stomach. I couldn't help but cry. It just came out and I couldn't stop it. I walked away from him to wipe my eyes.
"Oh no here we go. Baby what's wrong?" Chandler asked
"I'm just so in love and happy and I'm crying cause you keep saying that she's a boy!" I said
Chandler was now crying laughing at me before he got out the bed and walked towards me and hugged me. "It's okay baby you're having a girl!" Chandler said holding me.
"What's wrong with her?" Monica said walking in the room.
"She's mad cause I said she's having another boy." Chandler said laughing and so was Monica. I slapped Chandler on the butt before pushing away from him. I don't want another boy! No way in hell I'm gonna have another one.
"I will get my girl!" I said
"Fingers crossed." Monica said
"Right! This is your last try so.." Chandler said kissing my cheek. He walked away from me and started messing with the boys making them all laugh. Seeing that made my heart smile.
"Oh baby are you about to shower? I left your clothes in the car I'll go get them." I said
"Okay baby." Chandler said
I walked out the room and rushed towards the elevator. I got to the elevator and saw that Monica had followed me. Oh boy what does she want? I stepped into the elevator and so did she. We stood there in an awkward silence before she turned and looked at me.
"Did you need something?" I asked
"You ever regret marrying Chandler?" Monica asked
"Umm what?"
"Do you regret it?" Monica said in a smart tone.
"Where is this coming from?" I asked
"Answer the question Alana."
"No. I haven't and I don't know where you got that from so I suggest whatever you think you know keep that shit to yourself!" I spat before walking off the elevator and towards the doors. The hell does she know?
"Oh you mean like you and Levi sleeping with each other and you claiming that you shouldn't have married Chandler?" Monica said in an innocent tone.
I stopped in my tracks and turned to look at her. She had this smirk on her face that I wanted to smack off her face. I know damn well she didn't make that up herself so whatever her and Levi was talking about at the coffee shop was that. Dammit Levi! Wrong person to tell. Does he want the past to repeat itself. Even though I don't think Chandler can physically get that mad again I would never put it past him.
"Look Mon, what do you want me to say? You want me to beg you to not tell Chandler? Huh would it make you happy to see Chandler divorce me and maybe get back with you?"
"No. I gave Levi my word that I would never tell a word but I want to know what happened between y'all and are you ever gonna stop sleeping around?"
"I haven't slept around in years. I been with Chandler and only him. If you want to know yes we did sleep together back then and yes it was a big mistake. I wasn't in my right mind when I did it and words got exchanged. I regret it and I wished it never happened! I was being stupid. I love Chandler with everything in me and like I told Levi I will go to war over my marriage. So what is it that you want from me Monica? Cause I have no fight left in me and I don't want this to be a big thing!" I ranted
Monica stopped smiling and just nodded at me. I guess I told her what she wanted to hear and that was confirming everything Levi said. I'm so gonna kill him once I see him again. I can't believe he decided to tell her even after everything that has happened with her.
"Alana I'm not going to use this against you but I do feel like I need to protect Chandler from you. I don't want to see him hurt because of you. He's in love with you and I don't want to see him hurt."
"I'm not going to hurt him and it's not your job to protect him! It's mine which is why I'm not even doing anything but being a good wife! Did Levi tell you that I also was very drunk when I told him that. Everything that happened that night only happened cause I was drunk! So it doesn't count there's no feelings between us! At least on my end. This is the end of this conversation" I fumed
I walked to my car and grabbed Chandler's bag. I sat down in the car and couldn't help but cry. I grabbed my phone out my pocket and dialed Levi's number. It rung twice before he picked up.
"Levi are you fucking serious right now?" I yelled
"Lana. Can I call you back?"
"No! You are gonna talk to me right now!! Monica?! Are you fucking dumb? Do you want to die? Seriously? Like are you going crazy or something. What happened between us was a mistake Levi it didn't mean anything why are you so fucking stuck?" I screamed
"Alana! Okay you wanna do this over the phone?"
"Yes I want to do this over the fucking phone!"
"Okay. Alana I needed to vent and she was the last person I wanted to tell but I had to tell someone before I did something stupid! Also if you never meant those things you said you shouldn't have said it and continued to say it the whole fucking night because you wasn't drunk the whole night! So again I see how it is and I'm backing off like I told you and Mon. I'm sorry but I had to see if there's hope for us now I know it's not! I'm good I'm fifty years old I know how to get over a hoe." Levi said
"Hoe? Who the fuck are you calling a hoe Levi. You know what I see you in your lil feelings I'm getting off the phone now."
"Good!" Levi said before hanging up the phone
Hoe? Me? Well yeah. But seriously who the hell does he think he is calling me out of my name like that. I got out the car and made my way back to the room to see Monica and Chandler talking. I watched Chandler face and saw that he was mad and that Monica rubbed his arm consoling him. Chandler pulled her into a hug and I lost it right there.Feeling like I was about to commit murder I barged in the room and pushed Monica away from him.
"Don't fucking touch him!" I yelled
"Lana. What are you doing?"
"Why is she touching you? And what the fuck are y'all talking about?" I asked
Chandler looked at me like I had five heads and Monica stood back chuckling to herself and shaking her head.
"We're talking about Serena! The hell is your problem !" Chandler yelled
"Y'all don't need to touch each other!"
"What? Alana it was just a hug baby nothing else. Come here"
"I don't need you to touch me right now I need her to leave." I said
"I'll go before it turns into something else." Monica said holding her hands up and walking away. Monica whispered "guilty conscious much?" I turned and looked at her ready to attack before Chandler grabbed me and pulled me more into his room.
"Alana what the fuck is going on! Why did you lash out like that?"
"I don't know."
"You know that I don't want Monica. So i don't know why you was acting like that! You need to calm down and remember that you are pregnant!" Chandler said
"You right. I'm sorry" i said tilting my head up to kiss him. Chandler looked me in the eyes before he eventually kissed me.
I can't believe I let Monica get to me like this. I need to stop and not react this way about things because knowing her she can mess up everything if I push her hard enough and I don't need that. I am a one man woman my past needs to stay where it's at! I'm done with drama but it's like that's all I seem to do is cause it. All I can do is hope that Monica minds her own fucking business this time and stay the hell out of mine. Only time will tell...