5am (Beach)
What did I dooo🤦🏾♀️...I'm not feeling regret but I'm not exactly feeling good about what I had done. When I walked in the room last night, Babes was gone. I fell asleep & when I woke up, she was sleeping on her bed. Thankfully my alarms didn't wake her. I feel SO guilty right now. I thought losing my virginity was posed to be awesome...now I'm a girl who feels guilty AND who's inner thighs hurt. I mean...the sex felt good...it felt amazing...like REALLY amazing but like now I feel guilty....but I was too much in the moment to feel guilty last night....
Shanté: *sighs*
Jonathan: Dau-
Shanté: *jumps* Oh mylanta!
I thought he was going to ghost me...
Jonathan: *chuckles* Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you. *sits beside her*
Shanté: Why are you up? Go to sleep.
Jonathan: Why are you here?
Shanté: I come here every morning. I'm pretty sure I told you that.
But you probably never cared & you still don't because you got what you wanted without even trying
Jonathan: I remember you saying that you WALK the beach, not sit down.
...ok...I was wrong...but that still doesn't change the fact that he got what he wanted
Shanté: Why are you here?
Jonathan: I wanted to come see why you do it...now I see. It's peaceful out here.
Shanté: Well, now you can leave.
Please don't bring up last night😣
Jonathan: ...what was last night about?
& he brought up last night😐
Shanté: What do you mean?
Jonathan: You wouldn't have done that. You seem like the type of girl who doesn't have sex with guys she barely knows.
Shanté: ...I was horny.
Jonathan: Don't lie to me.
Shanté: Ok...don't judge but I have a bucket list and the first thing was to lose my virginity before senior year ends and I had the chance to do it with the sexist light skin I know and I took it.
Jonathan's POV
So it WAS her first time. I thought so...I don't like that I took her virginity because we're not in a relationship & will never be in one. I don't like to be in relationships...not anymore
Jonathan: Ouch.
Shanté: What do you mean "ouch"? I called you sexy.
Jonathan: Not that. It's the fact that you didn't really want to do it with me.
Shanté: Ok well technically, I did and why do you care? It's not like you wanted to do it with me.
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Love or Lust?
Teen FictionShanté: You were in her room, Jonathan! Jonathan: Ok, ok, I understand that but- Shanté: No, just shut up, ok! You hurt me. Badly. And- Jonathan: You hurt me too, Shanté. Quit playing victim all the damn time. Shanté: Well then I guess we shouldn't...