7th June 2020

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I've decided to delete the quarantine journal since I found it had nothing more than this one, it was even more lacking on the content of my days, so I deleted it..

I was also rewatching step up the movie and I've come to realize that most of the time when I give into the temptations of instant gratification rather than do the work that needs to be done, it's mainly because I don't feel confident in my ability to do what I'm supposed to do right.. I always get anxious and super worried right before I decide to give up or procrastinate just because I convince myself that I don't care. I think I do it out of fear and try to calm my brain with the "fact" that I don't care so that I stop being anxious, but I end up ruining myself and giving up or half-assing something that is very important to me..
I will try to work on this issue and try to redirect my anxiety into excitement or into something that I enjoy doing and still good for me, like dancing.

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