22nd May 2020

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29th of Ramadan🌸
I think last night was laylat Al Kadr, but I didn't take advantage of it. Even though I didn't find myself doing my best throughout the month of Ramadan, I have more motivation to make up for it through the rest of this year, despite all circumstances.
I feel like I was in a trance and I'm just starting to wake up. I regret the wasted time off course, but I'm not discourage by my weakness or constant slips; on the contrary, I'm determined to change the small things and be consistent with it in hopes of getting the good me back. I feel like I've been entranced for the last 2 years actually.. I'm not sure why though. I'm keen on getting to know why and changing the causes or getting rid of them altogether.
The thing is that this time it doesn't have be perfect from the first or the second or even the fiftieth try, but I should try nonetheless. I also don't have to rush into things nor be afraid of the amount of effort that I'll have to put into these tries. I have to train my mind and body to persevere and be consistent.. that is how I become disciplined.🌻👏🏻

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