The Girl Who Hides Magic

Chapter 38 | Last Time

CHAPTER 38 | Last Time

Pauline Cynthia Zunino’s Point of View

“What?” Sa sobrang hina ng bulong niya ay parang hangin na lang ang lumabas. 

I tried to keep my voice controlled. “You need to leave Bleanriths,” ulit ko sa mas malinaw at mas buong boses.

Napahawak ako sa bracelet ko, my hands trembling badly. I found comfort but it’s not enough to cover all the ache I’m feeling inside. 

“I told you I won’t leave until we fix this.” Mariin ang bawat salita niya, na para bang kaunti na lang ay magagalit na siya.

I shook my head as tears started to fall again. Nanginginig ang mga balikat ko at sinubukan kong ipirmi iyon pero wala akong magawa. My whole body aches the way my heart aches.

This is really too much for me to handle.

“Can’t you see? We can’t.” My voice trembled.

“Kaya ay paaalisin mo ‘ko? That’s not an option, Pauline!” His voice thundered. Parang galit na galit at kaunti na lang ay mauubusan na ng pasensiya.

I tried to catch my breath but I can’t, mas nangibabaw pa din ang paninikip at paghaplos ng sakit. 

“Please,” I begged, wanting him to understand.

He touched me by my shoulders softly. “I will do anything you want. Just not this.” He whispered; his eyes were bloodshot.

“I already scheduled you a transport back to Earth. Hindi ka na pwedeng tumanggi, Warner.” Parang dinudurog ang puso ko nang makita ang gulat at sakit sa mga mata niya.

I never wanted to see him hurt. I hate seeing him hurt.

“It’s scheduled tomorrow afternoon. Kasama mo si Raine pabalik.” 

He didn’t say anything, so I took the opportunity to speak while I still can. Dahil sigurado ako na sa sobrang sakit ng dibdib ko at gulo ng isip ko, baka hindi ko masabi at bumigay ako sakanya.

“I want to forget the bad memories I had in Earth, Warner. I badly want to stop being hurt!” Hikbi ko habang pinupunasan ang luhang tuloy-tuloy na umaagos.

“Can’t you do that with me by your side? You know that I’ll always be here for you, Pauline. I will help you.” Sa sobrang lambing ng boses niya ay mas lalo akong nanghihina.

I shook my head. “Everytime I see you, I remember your father—my father. Hindi ko kayang tumingin sa’yo dahil kapag nakikita kita, puro masamang alaala ang pumapasok sa utak ko. I can’t forget it if you’ll stay here.” 

Pain etched on his face was the most unbearable thing I had to see. Hindi ko kinaya ang ganoong hitsura niya. He was my powerful, rude, and ruthless Warner. He’s not supposed to be hurt by my words! 

He should be the strong one. Dahil kung pati siya ay nanghihina, paano ko pa itutuloy ‘to?

Natahimik kami ng ilang sandali. I was crying in front of him, begging him to leave while he stood with his bloodshot eyes, and pained face. 

“Is that what you really want?”

No.

“Yes.” 

“Alright,” he finally said. “I’ll leave if that’s what you want.” His voice is marked with finality that made me want to reconsider what I have done.

His hands were cold, a lot different from his usual warm hands, when he touched my chin, making me look up to him. Gamit ang isang kamay ay pinunasan niya ang luha ko.