1:00 a.m.

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-I'm hurt
-I'm sad
-sadness and angry seems to become my best accompany lately
-you were my everything
-And in fact you still are
-the fresh tears that slides onto my face and spills on my shirt is what I've been doing for the past hour
-my aching tired head throbs lightly as I can recall your tears of that night
-the question that remains in my head says "how long can you do this?"
-the question that remains in my head asks "alexis, can you continue to keep getting heartbroken until you find the one?"
-my brain battles the war inside my achy head and I silently answer while dropping my chin to my wet chest "no, I cannot/will not continue this."
-Im too young to be feeling so damn moody ever single day that I am awake
-the fatigue that invaded my body sends me back to the dream world of sleep
-the lack of exercise, Improper foods, and motivation is causing me to feel depressed
-I wish I had a therapy to talk with
-I can't do this alone
-I'm tired
-the thought/idea of losing the one I wanted hurts so fucking badly
-but we both had two different visions
-we both wanted two different goals
-I still love you and I will always love you
-I'm still in love with you
-but I have to find a way to uplift myself and my spirit
-I don't want to find love and I claimed this feeling on this day
-I will play hard to get.
-I will build a wall up and I cannot and will not let anyone break me down
-the only individuals I want to fall for is myself and my future kids/adopted kids
-I don't want to love another human being romantically
-I'm tired of having to clean up my own mess of emotions all alone again. . .

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