Nozomi (english)| Detective Conan ff | Heiji (Kazuha)

Who am I

A special chapter from another point of view
Beep... Beep... Beep

What

was

that?

It got louder... What was that noise and why didn't I see anything. None of my senses seemed to be working. Only the beeping sounded in my ears. It got louder and louder until a regular hissing sound started. An unexpected voice? A human in this black emptiness?

"Idiot... allowed to come so far... Why did you... Forgive me... please ..."

Only scraps of words got through to me. The voice was so broken, shaky and sad. I would cry if I could. Compared to the booming beeping, these words were so soft. I would like to have understood more.

The voice fell silent.

A new feeling! Another than hearing. Further away from the sounds. It was like an electric shock to my head. Slowly, I seemed to feel again. Feel my body. But where was this feeling before?

I wanted to move, but there was something, like a blockage, that prevented me from doing so. But I tried harder. I wanted more than just feel my body, I wanted to control it. It was exhausting, but I had managed it. It was only a finger, but that was more than enough. Yet my body still did what it wanted. My eyelids twitched fast. Do I get a new sense now? The darkness in which I was trapped suddenly became brighter and brighter. Slowly it became unpleasant and it began to hurt in my eyes. But it didn't matter... I could finally see again. After many attempts I finally gained control over my eyelids. In spite of the bright light and knowing that it would hurt even more I tore them open.

The reflexes that were anchored in me with nature, now wrestled with me. It was as if I was fighting with stronger and stronger opponents. I blinked uncontrollably and even if I saw nothing but white light I kept on fighting. And also this fight I won. I saw the light as it literally pierced my eyes and it was so beautiful.

But slowly the light shrank and became clearer and sharper. I now also saw other colours. Only grey but even that was better than the darkness I had been in before. I moved my eyes, for I wanted to see more. I did not have to move my eyes far until I discovered another pair of eyes. But the surprise I felt I could not express in any way. These eyes were completely foreign to me, but that did not stop them from expressing so much. They were wide open and the gaze was captivated to me. The eyes were beautiful, but the tiredness and tears suppressed this beauty. The skin of the person was dark and the hair almost black and tousled. It was a grown man, but why was he here and holding me?

Was it his fragile voice I heard before? I do not know him but I like him anyway. I wanted to ask him who he was, but I could not yet conquer the power over my voice.

Suddenly he spoke again:" Kazuha ... You...?" Did he spoke to me? If so... Then who was Kazuha? "I'll get a doctor!" A doctor? He seemed completely overwhelmed. And then he suddenly got up and left. That made me sad. Even though I didn't know who he was, for some reason I liked his presence. I didn't want to be alone again after so long.

But why did he talk about a doctor before. Was there someone else here? A person named Kazuha who needed a doctor? As far as my body allowed it, I looked around. I was alone, no doubt. Everything was so confusing. Where was I anyway? I was lying in a bed in the middle of a white room. My body was wired with many coloured wires and connected to a device. On the device was a screen with a jagged green line that went on and on.

Another man came in. This one, however, was not as sypatic to me as the one before. He was dressed completely white and was holding something in his hands. He stood in front of the bed and smiled friendly. "I'm glad you woke up. I'm your doctor."

"A doctor?" my voice scratched my throat. I could talk!

"Yes, you had an accident and you were in a coma. "But you should recover quickly and then you can go home," the doctor replied. In a coma? But why?

As I tried to remember, a sharp pain ran through my head.

"Okay, you should rest first," he said and wanted to leave.

"Wait a minute, please! Who was this man who was just here with me?" I wanted to get an answer at least. But the doctor was silent. Why didn't he say anything? All he did was look away.

Unexpectedly, this mentioned man came around the corner. I haven't even noticed him because of all the excitement. "That's him! He was just here talking to me.

I looked at the doctor first and then at the man. He suddenly became very pale and stared at me again so deep. His gaze, which had been full of emotions before, suddenly seemed completely empty. Why was he so depressed all the time.

"What is your name?" the doctor suddenly asked and ignored the man completely. What was this out-of-concept question?

"Well, my name is... My name is..." I fell silent. My name is... "I can't forget my name..." I muttered. how...  Damned, I don't know. My head was in pain again. It struck me like lightning, the feeling I saw in his eyes before. Emptiness. Nothing... Nothing of what has been before... It did not exist. As if I was born into this room only a few minutes ago. "Doctor... I can't remember. Nothing..." that's all I could get out. The emptiness I felt before now filled with fear.

Because I no longer knew who I was.