Colour Me Green (Camren)

Part 2 of Epilogue

I had not seen Lauren since that argument her mom told me to give her space but i just wanted to explain.I called her non stop but she had blocked off my phone or turned hers off.  I regretted what I had done with Shannon, i thought meeting her those times would be good closure for both of us but it turned into something else every time. It was dangerous for me to be around her and I knew it yet I did not leave when I could have. A knock on the door disturbed my thoughts.

I opened the door the usual vibrant green eyes were cold and dark,

"Lauren"her face as serious as I had ever seen it

"Can i come in"she said not looking me in the face

"Yeah please do"

I moved the alcohol bottles that were in front of the sofa and picked up some stuff as I didn't expect anybody.

"Its fine I wont be here long you dont need to do that"

"I know but I really-"

"I just came for my clothes Camden"

"Lauren please can we, can we talk"i begged i did not think she would agree but it was worth a try

"Okay"she said sitting down on the little couch, i sat next to her, i had missed her scent,her skin i just wanted to jump on top of her and stay with her

"I just want to start by apologizing Lauren-I"

"How many times"she said abruptly looking me in the eyes for the first time,the coldness of her look killed me

"It doesnt matter Lauren it happened and i regret it"

"It does matter how many fucken times Camden"

"Two just two and never while we were married it-"

"did you just kiss her or-"the fact that to her cheating only involved kissing but it was my time to come clean if we were going to get over this then well i had to tell her the full truth

"No we uh-we had sex"her head fell and the tears streamed down her face, i couldnt help but get on my knees in front of her

"Baby im sorry I dont know what i was thinking "i said trying to grip her hand and she held them she touched me for the first time in two days

"I love you Lauren please forgive me we can work through this"

"Camden i -i hate that i still love you but i dont think ill ever be able to get passed this"she said silently

"Babe"i said kissing her cheek

"Please dont Cam"she said pushing me away

"Ill do whatever you want it was a moment of weakness ,i just - theres no excuse im stupid and im sorry"

"Camden you know how many times I could have been with Camila?Before my wedding my brother, my own brother was pushing me to it, but i didnt because I loved you Camden I loved you so much and always gave you the benefit of the doubt I just cant do this Camden, I cant"she said before picking up her bag and leaving

I laid on the floor tears in my eyes and my heart completely broken but I deserved this I deserved the heartache that I had caused for both of us

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"How are you" the brown eyed woman said hugging me as she walked into my room as i sat on my bed

"Breathing"

"This is why I decided not to say anything Lauren I felt you deserved to be happy even if it meant losing you completely"

"You know you could never lose me completely Camz"