Colour Me Green (Camren)

Ch;23 silly little things

I laid on the sofa watching tv but not really watching.As the soccer game went on i thought about Camila.I wa ssupposed to be thinking about Camden but i knew i had to think things out.I dont know why i was stuck on Camila after everything i had gone through with her.I slowly began to fall asleep,alone.

Name calling
You were driving fast
My head leaning out the car
My chin to the sky
I wanted to feel upper class
You grabbed my shoulders
Said I looked like a superstar
Fast like a supercar

I remember all the car rides home,i usually would drive but when Camila drove there was a feeling of security as for once i felt she was securing me she was down for the both of us not just for the rush of a secret relationship.

Heading for the busy bar
The breeze had me choked up
Like the waves in the storm that we broke up
Lips on my knuckles
Can't face me in a trance
Dancing on the floor
Now we're drunk smoking a big cigar

Even though i was always seen as the outgoing one,Camila could get even crazier than me drunk.She didnt have a filter and danced with whoever she pleased.I rememeber how drunk she got on Dinahs birthday and how much she danced with random guys.My pulse went through the roof so i left the bar.A guy outside offered me a reliever.Only cigar ive ever smoked and even that stinky substance didnt remove the sour taste Seeing Camila dance with other guys left me.

Let's face it
Your replacement is
All the hopes and the dreams
You took right out of me

When I first found out Camila and Ryan were talking it broke me but i knew Camila was not going to be mine,even then it still broke me to lose her when in reality i had lost her a long time ago,if she really ever was mine.I focused on my job and occuppied myself with business meetings and business trips so i wouldnt have time to think about the brown eyes.

I've outgrown your
All of your silly little things
Outgrown those silly little games
And it's such a
A shame
Outgrown your
All of your silly little things
Outgrown those silly little games
And it's such a
A shame

My heart had been broken.When i decided to leave to New York i was more than done with Camila.I knew the only way to forget her was through distance.I knew i had to find someone new.I was ready to start over.

Free falling
We forgot this part
My thoughts take me to the start
My words don't sink in
I can tell by the way you laugh
Ropes unravelled, ruins in the rubble
We're both in trouble

Stop calling
Whisper on my own
Words that I've heard on repeat getting louder
Like your screaming through a megaphone
You don't have to know
If you let me go

I remember recieving so many private calls.I knew all along they were from Camila but never wanted to answer.Everytime i would recieve one though i would remember all she had lied to me about.The countless times she told me she loved me and that she would never leave me.All the times she promised me we would be living together and be happy.All of them were lies,she chose a different happiness.

And now
I'm feeling down
I can't turn back 'round
I need to block you out

Thats all i needed ,to leave Camila were she placed herself.Away from me.She wasnt for me and i knew it.

I've outgrown your
All of your silly little things
Outgrown those silly little games
And it's such a
A shame
Outgrown your
All of your silly little things
Outgrown those silly little games
And it's such a
A shame

-I had called Camden several times but she didnt answer I knew i had to go to her.

I picked up roses as i knew how much she loved them.I knocked on the door waiting for my girlfriend to open the door but it wasnt her.

"Shannon?"

"Uhm yeah whats up"the tall thin woman replied pretty much judging me for visiting my girlfriend

"Can i talk to Camden?"

"I dont think she wants to talk to you"

"Well i dont want to argue either but i need to fix this"

"Shes asleep you should leave"

"Well i can wait for her"

"I think she would appreciate her space"

"Who are you to prohibit me from seeing my girlfriend?"

"Are you sure shes your girlfriend?"

"Are you kidding me?"

"She doesnt want to be with you anymore Lauren get that through your head".

"You arent Cammie,you dont know how she feels"

"Well i do because she told me everything all night"

"All night?you slept here"

"Ofcourse i wasnt going to leave her alone"

"Can you move or ill move you" i was angry having to see Shannon and now i had to deal with her attitude

"Whats all this noise about"the blonde interrupted

"Cammie" a sigh of relief

"Can you let us talk"Camden said to Shannon

"Yeah"she said kissing her forehead before leaving.My blood boiled as the other brunette carressed my girlfriend

"Cammie"

"Yeah?"she replied anger still in her tone

"Why is she here?"i couldnt help myself

"Because she can be"

"She slept here?"

"Yeah"

"Are you kidding me?we argue one night and you go sleeping with your damn friend?"

"Why are you mad you have Camila?"

"Are you kidding me Camden!When did i fucken sleep with her since ive been with you?Ive only been for you Camden but okay if you want to move on over something i couldnt control fine ,i hope you are happy,here these were for you but who cares"i said giving her the roses and leaving tears in my eyes, thorns in my heart.