ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ʏᴏᴜ [𝓒𝓸𝓶𝓹𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓮𝓭✔]

Chapter 16: " Lance. Your full name is..."

"Sorry, mum." I take my towel amd wipe my hair. -I don't want her to see me like this... weak...- She comes closer and I put my hands up. "Mum, I need some time for myself." Her hands reaches mine and she removes the towel off my head.

She gives me a warm smile. "Felicia?" I nod, not looking at her. My mom is the only person, who understands my struggles. Soon she stands up and walks upstairs. "I'll prepare some pancakes and coffee. Come up stairs, okay?" I wait for her to shut the door.

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"Done showering?" Troy asks as I rub my hair with the towel. "Cause I realllyyyy reek."

"Don't you always reek?" I raise an eyebrow and he throws one blueberry at me.

"Raven. Troy." My mum says in a warning tune and I chuckle.

"Mum! Raven is half naked! Say something!" -Honestly, little brothers just want to provoke.-

"Oh please, you're sleeping naked." I bark back and take a bite off my pancake. He sighs in defeat and runs up stairs. -In this kinds of game, you can't win!-

My mum places the last plate on the dryer. "Are you free tomorrow?" I nod. -Good thing, my mum understands me and doesn't ask me what haplened down in my basement.-

She takes a sit beside me as I look up.
"I'll be working tomorrow till 10pm. So-"

"Yeah, don't worry. I'll prepare those kids' lunch and meals. Don't overdo yourself too, mum." -I know that my mom will still work hard. She works as a nurse and loves taking care of others. I really admire her.- After a little while she smiles and hands me chocolate syrup, but I decline it. Before she walks up the stairs, to her room, she kisses my head. Afterwards, I wash my plate, clean the house and read a book.

-I wonder, what Amanda is doing right now. Somehow I find it hard to not think about that woman. Since she as entered my life, my subconscious mind just doesn't want to leave her for a second. I really hate this feeling! Always that weird feeling... wanting to protect her... Why do we worry at all?!-

I check my phone and see no messages. -Yes, I know I haven't wrote her anything... -

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Therfore, I am going to write one now.

Me: How was school? Is everything alright? Sorry if I'm bothering you, but please understand, i can't ignore you :)

-Sounds clingy.... *deeelllleeettteeeee*-

Me: Want to meet up? I could pick you up...

-Wow... Fuck it! Sounds even worse!
Don't wanna sound like a pedophile!
*deeellleeeettteee*-

Me: Is everything alright? Sorry, that I haven't phoned or texted you sooner.

-Been waiting for 15 minutes already and haven't got any reply yet. IS IT THAT CRINGEY?! NO MORE LIKE... WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS LITTLE TEXT BOTHER ME SO MUCH?!...-

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I give up....

-Maybe, I'm just exhausted because of training.-