Was my love not good enough

Chapter13

So I had to take a minute and some time to myself and figure some things out and think about what I was gone do. But in all in reality I was breaking by the minute and hour and all and I didn't know how much more I could take of it. So I decided that since I didn't have nobody to talk to I ended up hitting my ex up Barnard I don't know why but I did cause I needed someone to listen to me, soo I hit him up and was like,

messages read,

Carmela-you up

Barnard- Yup what's up

Carmela-Pissed and stressed

barnard-Why

Carmela-This Mother fucking been stressing me out and then had his Mom talking about i don't do shit and all this other shit.

barnard- Oh

carmela- why u ain't answer when i called you.

Barnard-I was sleep why he wanna talk to me for

carmela- Cause he probably gone tell you come get my stupid ass that you can have me or come through with some alcohol. But i can tell carlos is  getting tired of me.

barnard- Whys that

Carmela- Cause i feel like i cant do shit right and i feel like i cant never please this man or make him happy that's why i said i don't need to be with no man i need to be by myself. And the one thing i can say about you is that you was always a good listener.

barnard- Yup I try to be lol I ain't trying to get back with you if that's what you thought tho

carmela- I thought you said you wanted me back and you said it as well. And it doesn't matter anyways i don't really care cause once this man get on his feet there be some one else and I'll be out the door its only a matter of time anyways. And when it happens I'll be back to square 1.

barnard- I thought about it there is nothing wrong with you and you're cool but I don't think I can handle anything right now.

carmela- Handle what sound like u need to be by ur self as well

barnard- I do

carmela- So do i that's why ima just step back and leave carlos alone that nigga can have my all this shit. i just want him to leave me alone for real.

barnard- Yea if you feel like we can still hang out occasionally

carmela- hangs out that nigga wouldn't dare he don't even let me hanging out with females I don't even have friends anymore and its because of him.

barnard- oh damn

carmela- yeah like seriously

Barnard- Move out he ain't got a job?

Carmela- I ran alway multiple times i ain't got no where to go.

barnard- Get a new place or if you wanna chill you can run away again

Carmela- And i aint doing that shit again its bad enough i aint got no crib but i need to get the hell up out of here.

barnard- Do he got a job

Carmela- no

Barnard- Oh damn so you pay all the bills

Carmela- hell yeah and I'm doing this shit about myself when it should be 50/50 and its not.

Barnard- Idk what to tell you then just break it off

Carmela- That nigga don't take me series im a joke to his ass.