poems from a lonely girl

。。I didn't want to admit it。。

I wish I could love myself
The way I loved you

But you came to me for advice
To ask me how you should tell someone you had a crush on them

I said to go confront them and to speak the truth
And of course,you spoke to her, not me.

It was pure torture as I watched you
I watched you walk over and smile at her

That shy twinkle in your eyes
Those dimples that made my heart skip a beat

Every laugh, every giggle that you shared
Was like a shard of glass piercing into my heart

Everytime you blushed while making a joke
I would bite back tears

I saw the smirks she would send me
And the purposeful sly look in her eyes

I knew she would soon get tired of you
And discard you like another of her broken toys

She didn't really like you like I did
But you were just so obsessed with her

I didn't want to come between you and your happiness
I didn't want to admit I had feelings for you

I didn't want to admit that I was smitten with you
That I loved you, and valued you more than my life.