Not In That Way - Lauren Jauregui/You *in editing*

chapter 3.

"I just can't stay here and you see you with him everyday when I...I lov.." I couldn't finish what I was about to say.

"When you what?" She said firmly but still softly.

"When I'm in love with you." I said quietly praying she didn't hear me.

"I love you too, I mean we're best friends." She said.

"No Lauren I'm in love with you." I said and she realised what I was saying.

"Oh." Was all she could say.

"Look you're amazing and beautiful..its just-" She started but I cut her off.

"I know what you're going to say, you were going to say, I love you just not in that way. Don't worry though it's what I expected, thats why I have to go home." I say and I see tears forming in her eyes.

"Promise me things won't change between us." She said desperately.

"I can't, things will be different, its too painful for me to be around you all the time and feel these feelings and know you don't feel the same." I said cupping her cheeks with my hands, both of us now crying.

"I'll miss you so much, I'm sorry I ruined everything." She said hugging me and holding on as if she never wanted to let go.

"You didn't ruin anything, its my fault for falling in love with you." I said as we both pulled back from our embrace.

Things fell silent again and I noticed Lauren's gaze was on my lips.

"Laure..." I started but she cut me off by kissing me.

It took me a while to respond but before I knew it I was kissing back.

The joy was short lived though as I realised what we were doing was wrong.

I pulled away and Lauren looked at me with hurt in her eyes.

"That shouldn't of happened." I said.

"Why?" She asked is she crazy.

"Because you have a boyfriend and you said you didn't see me in a more than friends way." I said stating the facts.

"I have to go, my flight leaves at 5 pm tomorrow." I said informing her as I walked away.

"I think I'm in love with you too." I swear I heard her whisper as I walked away. But I decided she probably didn't say that because if she did love me she wouldn't be with Luis.

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I woke up at around 11 am and realised Camila must've already woken up as she was nowhere to be seen.

Suddenly her and Dinah came bursting through the door shortly followed by Ally and Mani.

"Is it true?" They all asked at once.

"If you're asking about me leaving yes its true." I said flatly.

"We'll miss you so much Y/N." Ally said and they all agreed.

"I'll miss you guys too." I said and they all attacked me in one big group hug.

"Also Lauren told us everything about what happened last night, and we're sorry it didn't work out the way you hoped it would." Dinah said grabbing my hand.

"Honestly its fine." I lied and I think they could all tell.

"But real talk though if she said she didn't love you in that way why did she kiss you?" Mani asked.

"I've been asking my self the same question for the past ten hours." I said with a small fake chuckle.

"Speak of the devil." Ally said as Lauren walked in.

I noticed through all of this Camila stayed quiet which was unusual.

"Can I speak to Y/N?" She asked and I nodded.

"Alone." She said and as if on cue all the other girls left quickly.

"I'm sorry." She said sitting on my bed.

"For what?" I asked.

"Last night." She replied.

"Where's Luis?" I asked trying to get the topic of conversation away from me.

"In Miami or wherever his bitches are." She said.

"Wait you broke up?" I asked.

"It was a long time coming if I'm being honest."

"Why did you kiss me?" I asked desperately wanting to know the answer.

"Because it felt right." She confessed.

"But you said you didn't love me." I said remember last nights events.

"No I said I think I'm in love with you, you never asked if I was completely sure that I was in love with you." She said as if it was nothing.

"So you like me." I said probably sounding like a dumb child.

"I am literally about 1% away from being completely sure that I am in love with you." She said and I loved her honesty.

"Whats that one percent?" I asked curiously.

"The fact that you are going home." She said sadly.

"Please stay." She begged.

"Lauren..I"