Not In That Way - Lauren Jauregui/You *in editing*

chapter 22.

Hope you like. I didn't proof read so sorry for any mistakes.

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Your P.O.V

I know I should feel guilty for what happened with Camila but I simply can't. She made me feel things that I hadn't felt in a while. I'm not just talking about the sex, she made me feel beautiful and confident and loved. It's not that Lauren doesn't make me feel those things because she really does, it's just that she sometimes has this tendency to be cold and distant to the people she loves the most. I know that I've known her for far too long so you would expect that not to affect me; but it really does.

Everybody should feel like they are loved and that they are beautiful. The problem is Lauren isn't much of a talker, it's hard to judge how she feels and when you think you've got her sussed she throws a curve ball the completely throws you off.

Camila told me that Lauren wanted to meet and spend time with me before our families landed but truth be told right now I would much rather spend time in my hotel room, lounging around and pigging out. I also decided that I really needed to catch up with Kyle and fill him in on everything that has happened.

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I decided to face time Kyle as I hadn't seen him in what felt like years but in actual fact was a few months.

"Y/N. Long time no see, what service can I be to you today?" He said immediately after answering.

"I have a problem." I started.

"Carry one." He urged me to continue.

"Well as you know I am engaged to Lauren," I said showing him my ring.

"But yesterday we were on a flight and she snapped at me over nothing, then I shared a room with Camila and this morning we had sex...twice." I explained.

"Well...does Lauren know?" He questioned.

"Of course she doesn't!" I said as if it was obvious.

"Y/N why? You are engaged to Lauren, she is the love of your life and then you go and sleep with her best friend..again. This is L.A allover again." He reminded me.

"I don't know what to do. Lauren and I's families are both getting here tonight and we are formally telling them about our engagement but..I..I don't know if I want to marry her. I mean I love but I betrayed her and I don't feel guilty, I should be beating myself up about this but all I can think about is Camila." I spoke, my voice cracked as I was starting to get emotional about the topic.

"I think you should see how the rest of today plays out, I mean who knows Lauren may be having cold feet as well.

You are both only 20 remember so there is no exact rush to get married right now. I think you need to talk to Lauren and Camila and tell them both how you feel but not together because that would cause them to hate each other." Kyle told me, I decided to take his advice.

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It was 3:15 pm and my family are landing in three and a half hours. I was sat in the room that I was sharing with Camila. It was silent, Camila and I just sat there staring at each other.

"I don't know what to say." I told.

"Do you regret what we did?" She asked and I simply shook my head.

"I should but I don't." I replied.

"Are you going to tell Lauren, aren't you supposed to be meeting her?" She questioned.

"I told her I would meet her right before we needed to leave for the airport which is in three hours." I explained to her.

"Was Lauren your first love?" She asked as she took a sip from the water bottle she was holding.