The struggle is real

Chapter 5: All I need is a microphone

Tris pov:

I walk into school and turn on skyscraper by Demi Lovato.

I can hear whispers and people pointing at me calling me a "fat, ugly, freak" I turn my music up louder to drain out the people.

[Verse 1:]
Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?

I go into the bathroom and throw up whatever is in my stomach.

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

[Verse 2:]
As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

[Bridge:]
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear
Yeah, oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Oh Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

(Like a skyscraper)

Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

During all my classes I keep my head down and don't talk to anybody. Not even Chrissy or Four.

During lunch, I sit at a table in the back corner alone.

I have a ham sandwich and apple. I don't want to eat it, but I do anyways. I feel tears slide down my cheeks slowly. I shouldn't be upset, I wanted to be alone for the school year, without friends. I guess it's just harder for me now, since I know what it's like to have friends.

I see people sit down next to me and I look up to see it's Four and Christina.

"Why are you guys sitting with me?" I ask wiping away my tears.
"Because you are my friend." Four says.
I laugh while shaking my head.

"Why would you want to be friends with me? My whole life is a mess so why would you guys want to be a part of it?" I ask them.

"Well Tris, we care about you and when, you really care about someone, you stay with them in the hard times" Christina says. I roll my eyes and say
" You are only doing this because you pity me." Four sighs and says " Tris, we don't pity you, I can tell you don't want it so I won't give it you. I just want to be a shoulder for you to cry on, someone you can trust to keep your secrets." I feel a stray tears slip out of my eye and down my cheek. He smiles and wipes it away.

Then people start laughing and making fun of me. About how now I have
' pity partners.'

"Okay I'm sick of this!" I say.