No Filter (Book 1 & Completed)

Chapter 38: Yazira

Flashback

I was sitting in my room with my bags packed thinking back on everything that has been going on in life. I was pregnant and alone. I didn't know what I wanted to do. My mom was shipping me to stay with some of my family somewhere else. Apparently she couldn't take my attitude. I couldn't help it, I was pregnant, then again I wasn't really that easy to raise before I fucked up by getting pregnant. I barely had a belly yet, but if you knew me well you could tell I was with child. Next month I could find out the sex of my baby. I was so excited, then again a little broken that my baby's father wouldn't be here to see it and bask in this excitement I was. When I first found out I was pregnant I was so scared because I didn't want kids, I wanted to live my life meeting people, trying new things, but it's not really possible now at least till after I have this baby.

I look down at my lap, cradling my belly and think could I really do this on my own. My parents were happily married when I can along. I really can't do this on my own. I can't get rid of it now, but doesn't mean I have to raise it on my own. I don't want to be a mother, not on my own at least. I can't do this. I made up my mind I'll just give this baby up for adoption. This baby will get what they deserve, a family, something I can't provide.

My baby, this baby will get the world even if I can't give them the world myself. I'm leaving to a new state anyways new life, I can start over. Learn how to love myself and life again. I'm tired of people leaving me or abandoning me. First my father, then my baby's father, now my mother. I wish I could go back to a simpler time. Before my father left and before my mother gave up on me. Back when the smile on my face wasn't just for show and was sincere. This new start will be good for me and good for this baby.

"Are you ready? You're going to be late if you don't come on." My mother called up the stairs.

"I'm coming." I looked around the room, trying to remember this room I won't see for a long time and grabbed my suit case and walked out the room for the last time.

Five Months Later

I looked down on my baby in the car seat and said to myself I couldn't give him up. He was mine and also the last piece of his father I had left. He was mine. My baby. My AJ.

Two Weeks Later

I was back in town so I could find the father to my child. I was nervous because I didn't know what to expect. I haven't been here since earlier on in my pregnancy. I was currently sitting with my mom in the living room with the results of the DNA test. I was so nervous.

"Are you ready?"

"No, I can't do it. You do it." I handed and envelope to my mother.

"You sure?"

"Yes." I looked at AJ or Andrew Jordan Kumar. I can't believe I had this little human. Only two weeks old but changed my life around 180.

My mother unlatched the clasp and pulled out all the paperwork and held them out for us both to read, one by one.

Marshaun Raymond James

Probability of Paternity: 0%

Nathaniel Franklin Smith

Probability of Paternity: 0%

Axel Parks

Probability of Paternity: 0%

Patrick Shane McKinley

Probability of Paternity: 0%

Michael Ian Douglas

Probability of Paternity: 99.9998%

My baby's father was Micheal. Mikey and I had a fling. He was a guy I had sex with during summer and once again when I visited him at his school one weekend. We cut off contact when he went off to university. Nothing more, nothing less. It was just sexual between us. He's a great guy and when I told him I was pregnant, he said if he was the father he would transfer closer to me and that's all I could ask for AJ. Now the only thing left to do was to tell him the news.

Ring. Ring.

Speak of the devil. I was just about to call Mikey and instead he called me first.

"Hey Mikey."

"Yazira?" It wasn't Mikey, instead it was a women's voice.

"Yes."

"I have some bad news. Micheal was hit and killed a few nights ago in a drunk driving accident. A drunk driver hit him. I'm so sorry sweetheart. He uses to talk about you all the time and I figured it was only right to tell you."

"No, this isn't right. I don't understand. I just spoke to him a week ago. What am I going to tell his son?"

"Son? You had Michael's baby?"

"Yes, I just got the results and he wanted to be in AJ's life."

"I'm so sorry sweetie."

"I... I... Can you at least update me with everything. I want to be there."

"Sure. You get some rest okay."

"Okay and thank you so much. Bye."

"Bye bye now."

It hurt, to know he's not here anymore and he didn't even get to know his son or to know he had a son. Mikey was a sweet guy. He had a huge crush on me and of course I turned him down because I wasn't ready for a relationship. I wanted to have my fun. Maybe I should have given him a chance and he would be alive still. I know one thing, life is short and I need to make it right with everybody. I don't want any regrets, even though it may be a little late for some, other I can at least try to over come. I'm doing this for AJ and Mikey.
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A/N: Now you know who the daddy is. 💃Yes this is a whole Yazira chapter and yes the first half you already read and yes I'm bringing her back, because I'm the author and I can do what I want. I did take your request in consideration, but I decided to bring her back. I do have good news though, this will most likely will be her last POV in this book. I'm adding someone else's POV in the next chapter. So you will understand them as a person. 💋💋💋