4-15-18
We don't close here,
Vacancy
Always searching
For the people.
The people that fill the rooms,
With streetlights,
Hit the skies.
I ask you what it is,
You tell me you see fine,
20/20,
I tell you they're wrong.
Came to the groups of threes,
Looking for some truth
That rests
Like blades at my teeth.
My lover has me around a rope,
She tells me that his life
Is a small price
To sit pretty
At his throne.
Leave me alone
Leave me alone,
I don't spill shit,
You ring up my phone
But it's at the porcelain bowl,
The blood red
Messes I made,
My neck doesn't hold up
A head full of heart,
That shits at my stomach now,
My neck doesn't hold up
A head full of stars,
I throw them at the sink
Without the faucet.
My neck doesn't hold up
Anything at all,
Let me hit the floor,
Take the fall.
I come home
Smelling like wine,
They know
What I know
About the good times.
Put the grit back in my veins,
I wanna get dodgy,
I wanna let you promise
And I don't wanna walk away.
And he told me
My eyes look lonely
His hands that could show me,
I see him.
Missing seat,
I don't believe,
He still breathes
Still rests afar
From that coffin.
Afar from the point
They drop him.
Apologies on my name
But not from my mouth,
I had them do my dirty work
Tonight,
Don't you try to get me to work
Tonight,
I'll caress your face
But my sweetest gestures
Are keeping
You
Out
Of
This.
Awake,
And talk from your sleep,
Paranoia's a snake,
Scales made of blades,
Don't fucking touch me.
Swear to god,
I sit so high
I could swear to god.
Reach through time
To find you,
Long fucking lost.
Haven't talked since Thursday,
Haven't talked since you hurt me,
What did I do to earn the heights
And only receive the lows?
You taught me better than anyone,
What a shot glass could hold,
She's got it she's got it-
I used to understand you,
Watch you cave into your soul,
Was it not your tongue, that told, this shitshow would get old?
Begged me not to listen
To the voices you keep giving-
Changing your pitches.
I ride out of town,
Sipping liquor
From a McDonald's cup,
Think I'm sicker
Than they thought I was.
I'm
I'm
From the forward
And from the reverse,
Timeless,
A classic motherfucker.
Put me to sleep
With something strong,
I can't get rid of the feeling
Everything is wrong
I swear to you
I know i walk like a god,
I know my power,
Like a gun, how I lock,
The way I talk,
But I find myself drifting
She told the lies,
Laid the denial-
Everything is fine here,
Look how good you've got it now,
So fucking glad he's out,
This was you all along-
I broke,
My love is different,
My faith keeps spitting
Back,
Put the grit
I had
In my veins.
⁃ (m.m)
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