• Hello, everyone 👋🏻 I just wanted to put this author's note up for you to read before you go on with the chapter... For Christmas this past year, I received TWD S7 on DVD — which is exactly what I needed and wanted. I needed it for this story — and I wanted it for my pleasure and to go along with all the other 6 DVD's that I have of TWD. Now, with that said... I haven't even TOUCHED the S7 DVD set yet. (IKR?!) It's what I wanted and needed, but... I can't do it. I legitimately CAN'T bring myself to put in the DVD player and/or laptop to watch it. I'm scared to do it 'cause that WHOLE SEASON was too emotional for me to get through. I BARLEY made it out alive. So, with that said, instead of going play by play of the show, I wanted to do yet ANOTHER chapter of something that I have made-up from my mind to fit in this little story. I'm thinking that the next chapter will be the one where Carl (and Jesus) pay a VISIT to the Sanctuary. That is when I will FINALLY put the DVD in to watch and pick back up with the REAL stuff. Tess is gonna be a KEY member when it comes to Carl and Jesus — 'cause, like... She loves Carl (like a little brother) and has to protect him, no matter what, and Jesus is her twin brother, so... I'm sorry that this has been SO LONG. I am so sorry. So, bare with me for this chapter and the next should be better... 🙃 Yet, this one WILL be pretty sad, though, so prepare yourselves 😭 All the love .xx •
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The days went by...
I was starting to lose my mind a bit.
Everything from obeying Negan's every order to protecting Daryl at all costs to trying to avoid Dwight altogether... I was losing myself — and who I've always been.
If Don was alive right now and seen how quickly I fell to the enemy, he would just so ashamed of me. He probably wouldn't even be able to look at me, unless it was with disgust.
Most days, I find myself locked away in my room — unless I'm due to do something else for Negan. Every night, before I lay my head to go to sleep, I'm up and writing in my personal journal. I keep it under the mattress, so that nobody will hopefully not find it.
I don't necessarily start off every new page with Dear Diary, but I do write in it every night to keep myself sane. I write letters, poems, and scribble some drawings down, too. I have written a letter to each person back at home, even Glenn and Abraham, too.
Every time that I go to write one for Maggie, though... I can't seem to do it. I can't place that pen onto paper without crying. Not even writing those letters to the dead gets me like this. I feel guilt every time that I think of Maggie — and her unborn child, too.
The way that she reacted when I was being dragged away... She cared about me and my safety. Yet, every time that her back was turned, I was undressing her husband with my eyes. There's only one way to put it...
I was in love with Glenn Rhee.
I want to put that in the letter that I could probably give her one day, but she'll never forgive me, though. She won't ever forget, no matter what happens. She'll always look to me with disgust and hatred, and I can't live the rest of my life with that. Yet, somehow, I can't let this guilt go until I finally confess to her.
What would I say to her, though? Dear Maggie, I'm sorry that I was in love with your husband. I hope that you take care. Sincerely, Tess. That's bull-crap.
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FanfictionFIRST CAME THE GROUNDBREAKING COMIC BOOK SERIES. THEN CAME THE RECORD-BREAKING TELEVISION SERIES. THIS IS AN ADVENTURE SET IN THAT SAME BLEAK WORLD. Tessa Rovia, otherwise known as just Tess, is now living in the world of the undead with the only fa...