The Warrior 1: Primo

Chapter 12

ILANG BESES NA NAGFLASHBACK ULIT SA  isip ko ang pag uusap namin ni Primo kahapon. There was something about what he said that made me trust him so much. How he said those words, how it made me feel yesterday.

Then it hit me.

No.

This can't be happening.

I can't like Primo.

I was just scared and what he said was what I needed at that right moment. Siguro nadala lang ako sa damdamin during that time that's why I felt my heart race. I'm sure I was just overreacting.

"Tama, it's not true. I don't like him. Not gonna happen, never gonna happen," I mumbled to myself.

"Hoy!" Sigaw ni Shiva.

"Ano?!" Inis na sabi ko sa kanya.

Sa halip na sumagot ay tinuro niya ang buong classroom. Wala nang mga tao. Kaming dalawa na lang ang natira.

I haven't got a good sleep yesterday and sure as hell I haven't been able to focus in my lesson today as well.

"Uwian na ba?" tanong ko bago sinulyapan ang relo.

It's past six pm. I hate this subject so much. Paano ba naman ay pagabi ang schedule tapos literature pa. Pero sabagay kahit naman math hindi ko rin gusto.

"Obviously," sarcastic na sabi niya.

"Sorry, I was spacing out," hingi ko ng paumanhin tapos tumayo na. "Let's go."

Nakaupo pa rin siya. "Hindi pa tayo pwedeng umalis. Wala pa sila Primo," she said fidgeting at her phone. She's maybe texting them that we just finished off our class.

"Huh? E, ano ngayon kung wala pa sila? Dala ba nila yung kalsada? Atsaka, mas lalong dapat na tayong umalis at baka abutan pa ako ni Primo rito."

I'm more determined to not see Primo now than before. Gusto kong makatulog ng matiwasay mamayang gabi and seeing him today is like waiting for an all nighter overthinking to happen.

"Ano? Hindi pwede. Sabi ni Seige lagot kaming lahat kay Primo kapag hindi natin sila hinintay."

I gave her an accusing look. "And since when did you care so much about Seige? Do you like him?" Diretsang tanong ko.

Iniwasan niya ang mata ko. "I don't know."

"Well, you have to make up your mind because there's Lexus and there's also Seige. The earlier you tell them the truth, the better," seryosong usal ko. "Baka makasakit ka pa ng tao."

"I don't know and I don't want to choose between them. It's not like they're objects na kailangan pagpilian. Alam mo ba kung anong feeling ko ngayon? It feels like I'm in between two big walls and I have to choose kung saan ko iuumpog ang ulo ko,"  aniya saka marahang inumpog ang libro niya sa sariling ulo.

Good to know na hindi lang ako ang hindi makatulog ng maayos sa gabi. Halata naman kasi sa mga eyebags niya. That's good though, ibig sabihin hindi siya natutuwa sa sitwasyon niya. She cares about the two guys, not the same way but definitely cares about them.