Fix My Corrupted Heart (Sequel to CTGG) #WATTYS2019

Chapter 6: There's Always A Choice

Chapter 6: There's Always A Choice

Work was even more hectic than usual; considering I came in today with dark shades hiding my hooded, drunken eyes and a black coffee sitting in my palm, however everyone knows that's not unusual. Sarah greeted me and I gave her a slight wave as I made my way to my office, shutting the door behind me.

I sighed and placed my throbbing head in my sweaty palms, pushing the sunglasses through my hair, so they rested on top of my head, I rubbed my temples, releasing a sigh.

The day was pretty uneventful; besides the minor conversations I had with some of my staff about their ideas. By the time it was time for me to head out, last as usual, I was ready for bed. So, I headed out of the building and down to the parking garage and off to Belle's and Jake's I went.

The drive was quiet and felt a lot longer than it should've. Finally arriving, I was too exhausted to even think about conversing with anybody about anything. So when I entered the house, I looked for my pup and planned on getting the hell out of there as soon as possible.

"Hey." Belle greeted me almost instantly and I gave her the smallest smile she's probably ever gotten from me and she gave me a look and I shrugged my shoulders. "Today was a rough day." I chuckled lightly and she nodded in agreement.

"Help me carry these two boxes to the room?" She asked in her sweet voice and I nodded as I squatted down to grab the other box and followed behind her. As soon as we entered the room, I dropped the box near the closet wall and sat on the bed, laying backward and releasing a sigh.

"What happened?" Belle questioned softly and I sighed again before explaining last nights situation and the other days situation to her. "Damn, that's rough, Lay. Did you mean any of it?" I gave her a look and she laughed slightly. "Of course you didn't."

I shrugged slightly. "I don't know who I am anymore, Belle. I feel completely and utterly lost and now that he's here; around me again, it's like I can't think and I just get so frustrated because I can't move on if he's lingering over my head like a gray cloud on a stormy night."

"So you'll seriously never consider getting back with him? I mean he really loves you, Lay." Laughing sarcastically, I sat up abruptly. "Loves me? He only loves himself. He got bored and left, he got bored and came back because he knows that he can manipulate me into feeling guilty, like this was all my fault in some twisted way. He was controlling anyways, and no matter how 'bad' he is, it isn't okay. I don't care." Belle nodded in a way to agree with me.

"I suppose." She responded sadly and I laid back down and sighed with her. "He's selfish." She shrugged and nodded but didn't attempt to further the conversation.

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ACE'S POV

30 months. That's two and a half years. For two and a half years I abandoned and betrayed the only other girl I ever loved other than my mom. The words can't describe how I feel. How terrible and remorseful I've been. I want her back. I need her. She'll never want me again.

My thoughts kept circling around my brain and I couldn't help but feel sad. Jake wasn't being exactly pitiful either, much to my dismay.

"Dude, can you blame her? You never texted or called her back. Everyday for a year she left you messages. You didn't so much as respond to one, and yet here you are complaining that she's not falling back on to your dick. Newsflash dude, you seriously fucked her up."

I couldn't help but to pout and get angry because he was right. I did this to myself, I am the leading cause of this all. "Okay but that doesn't mean you gotta be so rude, damn." He rolled his eyes and shrugged. "You fucked her up and now you have to live with that."

"You don't think I know this?" I couldn't help but to get loud. "I get it! I'm dumb! I lost the best thing to ever happen to me. I know!" Jake was mad but eventually sighed and sat next to me.

"How do you even make up for something like that." I placed my head in my hands and sighed. Jake sighed as well before responding. "I guess you pray like hell she forgives you. It's not going to be easy. But when you love someone fuck that letting them go bullshit, fight for her, Ace. Fight for her until you feel like you either completely lost her or you get her back."

I shook my head in agreement, "do you think she's gone forever. Do you think she really won't ever forgive me." He paused for awhile.

"I don't know, man. I hope not." I nodded too. I hope not too. After a short silence, Jake broke it first. "How do you know Laynes the one? Not to sound rude or anything, I just want to know if this isn't just lust."

I was silent for awhile. "She is the kind of woman you want to come home after a long day to, the one to whisper all your secrets to, when she's not around she's the one I wish was. If she's not there, I won't be having fun. Layne is the woman I can only wish my daughters will grow up to be.

She's so strong and beautiful and independent. She's feisty and she won't take any shit. She's too stubborn sometimes, even for her own good. She is the second handedly most amazing and sweetest girl i've ever met in my entire life. If what I feel for Layne isn't love then honestly I have no idea what is.

When I see her, everything becomes more clear. It's like a sudden flash forward into the future.

I can see me coming home from a long day at work, opening the door and being tackled around my legs by a little girl who so much represents her beautiful mother. And there's a little boy playing with his cars too busy to even notice I came home and then I hear another little voice shout "daddy!" and come running to join her sister. I laugh and pick them up as we make our way to the kitchen and I come face to face with a beautiful woman cooking dinner, smiling up at me, happy i'm finally home. Layne walks over to me and wraps her arms around my neck and kisses me with so much love as our kids are disgusted. We laugh and stare with so much love..." I start to trail off and sigh as Jake stares at me and pats me on the back.

"She'll be yours again. You'll have that."