Bumaba ako sa sinakyan kong taxi na mabigat ang kalooban sa lahat ng nangyayari. I didn't even notice my fist balled since I left Miko's house. Napansin ko na lang ito nang makababa na ako sa harap ng malaking bahay ni ninong Ygo.
I am still in the middle of thinking..Thinking of possible reasons kung bakit kinailangang pati si Miko ay idawit ni daddy. He's been good to me, even his family!
I am torn between calling Prim and coming here. Coming here means something to end. Alam kong mali na gawin pero ito ang pakiramdam kong dapat. How I wish I haven't gone here wearing this feeling...Iyong pakiramdam na para na akong sasabog sa sama ng loob sa sarili kong ama.
How can he..possibly do this to me? Is he even aware that he's destroying me?
Pinatuloy ako ng kasambahay nila ninong. Getting inside means something to end, to cut, to forget to give up...Paulit-ulit kong iniisip ang mga pwedeng mangyari pagkatapos nito. How will my life be after this day?
"Maya?" I raise my head to see Gab walking down the stairs with his tousled hair, nakakunot ang noo nito habang mabilis na lumalapit sa akin. His hands landed on both of my shoulders trying to have a glimpse of my troubled face.
I felt weak. So weak that I just want to ask someone to take release atleast half of my burden.
"What's with the fucked up face? Hey? Are you okay?" Gab asked. I shook my head.
"G-Gab..si ninong?" I asked almost a whisper. Gab's lips parted.
"Nasa lib niya sa taas. Can we sit? Baka abutan tayo ni dad sabihin inaaway na naman kita." Gab said
"What the hell happened? Why do you need dad?" He asked nang makaupo na kami. He brushed my hair with his fingers. I tried giving him a smile.
"I need to talk to him." I answered
"Well obviously. Tungkol saan?"
Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot. I covered my face with my hands and I found myself weeping again. I felt Gab's hand at my back, he muttered curses.
"Tahan na. Kapag bumaba si dad ako mayayari doon. Come on Maya! Stop weeping like a pig. Aawayin ako ni Primadona kapag nalaman niya to!"
"Sorry.." I said habang humihikbi.
Sorry..if I'm thinking to just give up everything. Pagod na kasi talaga ako.
"Gabriel!" I heard ninong's voice. Gab cursed again. Sabay tayo nito.
"Dad! Ano kasi..si maya ano..as you see...she's crying pero hindi ako nagpaiyak sa kanya dad ha! Ano, she's here to see you so.."
"Bakit defensive ka?" Ninong asked.
"Of course. I'm a lawyer's son. So, you guys talk, I'll wait for you to finish. We'll talk later Maya." Gab said. Umalis na rin ito agad at kitang-kita ko ang pag-aalala nito. Agad akong lumingon kay ninong na ganoon na rin ang pag-aalala.
"I see. You already made a decision?" Ninong asked.
"Maya...kung hindi ka pa handa--" I cut him off.
"He's just too much ninong. I have never felt having a dad in the first place. Besides, I don't feel happy staying with him and his family...his real family..It makes me feel awful, unwelcome, unhappy...I am just so tired of him manipulating my life. Hangga't dala ko ang apelyido ni daddy, alam kong hindi niya ako bibitawan even I beg him to do so." I said.
"Would you like me to consult your mom first?" Ninong asked.
"I want this to get done already ninong. Mom has gone too much for dad. Kung malalaman man ito ni mommy, let this all be done first. Mom has such a soft heart alam kong she'll discourage me to do this." I said.
