"What have you done to me?" He asked with a sarcasmic chuckle. He leaned closer. So close. Pero bakit ganito ang pakiramdam ko? Bakit parang..hindi ko parin siya maabot?
"Maya, bakit mo ako nagustuhan? Are you attracted just because of how I look physically?"
Umiling ako. Nahihirapan akong magsalita. I can't find the right words to answer. Pakiramdam ko ay sinasaway ako dahil sa isang pagkakamali.
Pagkakamali?
Is it...wrong to love him?
Love?
Is it the right word to describe what I'm feeling right now? Isn't too early? Pero sabi ni mom noon, walang pinipiling oras at panahon ang pag-ibig.
"Then what's the reason? "
"I..I don't know. Ka-kailangan ba ng rason?"
"We are on the same page then. Hindi rin ako makahanap ng rason...kung bakit, gusto kita."
He said. My eyes widen in disbelief.
"Y-you like me?" I asked. He stared at my clueless face. Naconcious ako bigla sa paraan ng paninitig nito.
"I do. May magagalit ba?" He asked. Umigting ang panga nito at kumunot ang noo.
"W-wala." I asnwered. Damn!
"Sure?" He asked. His forehead is still knotted. Natutukso akong hawakan ang noo nito. Pero mahirap magpigil.
I raised my hands to touch his forehead. He stilled. Tinanggal ko ang pagkakakunot noo nito.
"Bakit? Anong gagawin mo kung sakaling me-meron?" I asked. Somehow I'm starting to gain the confidence. Though he's intimidating and my attraction for him made him more intimidating, I still believe I have to ease the awkwardness between us.
My other hand is shaking when he caught it.
"Wala naman. Kailangan lang niyang mawala." He said with that sexy smirk that made my heart raced.
He sighed.
"Maya, I still want you to stay away from me." He said. Bigla akong natigilan. My hand slowly went down of his touch pero bigla niya itong hinawakan ulit.
He raised our hands and intertwined it. My lips parted. It feels good. The warmth of his hand. It feels perfect.
"But it feels right holding you like this."
I felt guilty all of a sudden. Bakit pakiramdam ko nahihirapan siya dahil sa akin? Maybe he loves his girlfriend so much. He can't accept the fact that he's not being loyal now.
"Iiwas nalang ako. " I said.
"This is new to me. I have never been hooked like this. Just so you know, mukha lang akong womanizer but I am not. " He said. Theres a hint of smile on his face.
"So, anong gagawin ko?" I asked.
"I don't want to rush things, you deserve something...more formal than this. More appropriate than this. I want you to be my girl pero..hindi sa ganitong paraan. How can I give you a relationship goal kung mamadaliin kita? I want us to start clean. How about we start as friends?" He asked.
"Friends?" Tumango ako.His lips parted. He cursed. I smiled at him as I extended my hand for a shake.
"Well, we can skip the friendship. Damn it!" He said. I giggled. This is fine. Friendship is fine. If this is what he can offer for now. Atleast I am aware that he likes me.
"I am giving you the chance to know me. Let you think if I deserve you. " he said. And I thought that was the sweetest thing. He cares for my opinion. That means a lot to me.
