Pasalampak akong naupo sa sofa matapos kong mailagay sa lamesa ang mga pinamili ko. After school, I went to grab groceries. Nawalan na kasi ako ng stocks ng popcorn. I will be needing it lalo na't nalalapit na ang Christmas break.
Today is Friday at hindi na ako magugulat kung maya-maya ay iflood na ako ng threatening messages ni Prim lalo na't ngayon ang celebration niya ng birthday sa isang kilalang bar.
Which is what I am actually escaping. I greeted her many times this morning, gave her my gift pero walang palya ang pagpapaalala nito na dumalo ako. Okay lang naman sa akin, it's just that, I don't like bars and I don't know any of her 'other' friends. Aminado naman akong may pagkaintrovert ako minsan.
I am not capable of making a lot friends. Probably because I got traumatized with my childhood.
Naging mindset ko na huwag ipilit ang sarili sa mga taong hindi naman lumalapit. I only have Prim as my bestfriend, dahil kalog ito at siya ang naunang makipagkaibigan sa akin.
But why Radicus? He seems aloof. Snob. Intimidating.
Speaking of Radicus, I think he went out. Nakita ko siya kaninang pumasok sa isang itim na trailblazer. I can't help but think he might visit the cemetery again. Ang swerte talaga ng nobya nito. Mayroong gaya ni Radicus na nagmamahal sa kanya.
Unlike me.
Nagsimula akong maghanap ng pupwede kong panoorin. I end up choosing Avengers instead. I love Marvel movies! Isa sa mga relaxation ko ang manood ng marvel heroes.
Naupo ako as I started chewing popcorn. Hindi na ako nakapagbihis. I am just wearing a ripped shorts and a fitted white blouse. Nakapatong pa sa center table ang isa kong paa.
Damn Captain America!
I am hooked by the movie na halos hindi ko namalayang alas-otso na ng gabi. I haven't eaten my dinner but I am really not planning to.
I grabbed my phone vibrating continuously on the center table, sigurado akong tawag ito.
Not minding who might be the caller, I answered it.
"Hello--"
"Armaya. " I froze when I heard that familiar voice plus that tone. I closed my eyes. Damn!
"D-dad..Kumusta po?"
"A green card? Seriously?" I know that tone. He's hiding his irritation. Paulit-ulit akong napahilot ng sentido.
I am starting to hate that professor! He gave me a green card out of a nonsense reason! I tried explaining him, he did not believe me! I accepted the detention instead, almost kneel infront of him just to not tell dad about this!
And this! Now what?! Isa sa mga ayaw ko ay mayroong ganitong moment kami ni dad kung saan bigla-bigla siyang nagkakaroon ng pakealam sa akin just because he noticed my mistake! A very small mistake!
I sighed.
"Dad..it's nothing." I just answered. Napatayo ako at napunta sa harap ng ng sink.
"What is this this time? Late? Cutting classes? Peer pressure?" He asked more but I kept my silence.
Magsusumbong na lang ang professor na iyon hindi pa niya sinabi kung bakit ako nadetain! Great! Now I am having a tough time explaining dad why I got such fucking card when all I just did is return a damn ballpen!
And yes! Dad thinks I am a rebellious daughter! Like duh? Sira na ang buhay ko dahil sa kanila, sisirain ko pa sa pagrerebelde?
"Dad..hindi naman po ganoon, It was all a misunderstanding. Hindi naman po--"
