He chuckled. Great! He's laughing at me!
"Radicus....hindi tamang ikaw ang nagpalit ng...ng.." I stop. Glared at him while he's grinning. This shouldn't be a big deal. I let myself calm.
Pinag-isipan kong mabuti kong dapat ko pa bang itanong sa kanya. I chose to keep it myself.
"Done?" He asked looking so entertained or what. I think he has an idea kung ano ang tinutukoy ko kanina.
I nodded in response.
"Are you now feeling better?" He asked.
"Better than I deserve I guess. Thanks." I keep myself as normal as I could. Kahit pa hindi na ata mapigilan ang pagkabog ng aking dibdib.
"Right. So, I'll leave you here first. I'll just help nanay prepare your food. Iaakyat ko nalang dito."
"No. Please stay." Without thinking, iyon ang lumabas sa bibig ko.
He's reaction seems amused. I sighed. Deep. So deep that it looks like it was the first time I'm doing it.
"If only those are the words you told me 3 months ago. It would have been better."
My lips parted.
"But look at me. I'm still into you even you told me to stay away."
Natahimik ako sa sinabi nito. Nakaramdam ako ng lungkot at sakit sa sinabi nito.
"I want to know...what happened earlier. Si Mela, may alam ba siya? Did you tell her? " I asked.
"We have plenty of time to do that tom--"
"I don't think I could go back to sleep feeling so confused and worried at the same time."
Silence evaded us.
"It was all planned. I mean earlier. Mela planned it. So I can celebrate my birthday with you. She said this will be her gift for me. "
My eyes widen. Bakit niya naman gagawin iyon?
"And if you'll ask me, kung paano niya nalaman ang tungkol sa atin. I don't know too. It just happened that one day, she asked me to go back here in the Philippines."
"Bakit niya naman gagawin iyon? I mean..you are her...boyfriend. I'm sure..."
Radicus's lips formed into thin line. Kunot ang noo nito at umiwas ng tingin. I heard him sighed.
"Maya..before the accident, Mela and I were over."
I slowly shook my head. This is something new. Ever since we met, hindi ko narinig si Radicus na nagkwento tungkol sa nakaraan nila ni Mela. And maybe this is also one reason kung bakit kahit sabihin ni Rad na mahal niya ako, there is always this gap between the two of us. I always feel a wall in between that has been keeping me apart from him.
"W-what?" I asked, stuttering.
He palmed his face before sitting next to me. Bahagya akong napausog nang magdampi ang mga balat namin. God, I miss him.
I gasped when I felt him reaching for my knuckles.
"She broke up with me before we had the accident. Kung tatanungin mo ako kung bakit. I, myself, don't know why she has to make efforts for us to break up."
"E-efforts?"
"She told me she has fallen out with me and fell for someone else pero knowing Mela, I haven't seen her dated anyone. Kahit si Thad na madalas na niyang kasama noon."
"I don't get it. Bakit naman niya gagawin iyon?" I asked. He shrugged.
"I don't know. I have no idea. I tried punching my brother for anwers but that idiot gave me nothing. Hindi niya raw alam."
He punched Thad? Kasi nagseselos siya? Pinaghinalaan niya ba na kay Thad nainlove si Mela? God! What am I thinking? Am I jealous? Like seriously!
"I know what you're thinking---" I glared at him. How the heck this guy knows me too much. Too much that he knows I'm overthinking again!
"Hindi ko siya sinuntok kasi nagseselos ako---"
"Oh! Shut it Rad." I groaned and cover my face with a pillow para lang maitago ang pamumula ko. See? He really is good at reading me!
"I'm just bothered. Mela is somewhat like you. Mahilig magtago ng nararamdaman. She broke up with me through phone. The next days iniiwasan na niya ako. Then that one day, I caught her. It was that only day na nakita ko ulit siya and I know that time na may mali sa kanya. I tried asking her, I didn't mind kung wala na kami. We were childhood friends, I should know there is really something wrong. And we had arguments. Inside the car...and the last time I remember, I woke up trying to reach for her head bleeding, she's unconcious and..."
Parang pinipiga ang puso ko habang nakikitang hirap si Rad sa pagkukwento. He must be really in trauma for what happened. Hindi ko rin kayang isipin na humantong sila sa ganoong sitwasyon ni Mela.
Napatingin ako sa cellphone ko na biglang nagring. It's my mother calling. Hindi ko rin ito nasagot kaagad. I scanned my phone only to find out na nakakarami ng tawag si Miko. I heard someone cleared throat.
"I can see you're in good terms with that Mcdo guy?"
I rolled my eyes.
"He has a name." I said.
"Well it just so happen na hindi ko alam." He answered grumpily
"His name is Mi--" Napahinto ako dahil sa talim ng tingin nito.
"Mi...ko." itinuloy ko parin kahit mahina lang. And just as expected, he walked out. Muntik pa akong mapatalon sa kama sa lakas ng pagsara nito ng pinto.
