Girl of Never : Days to Love (Chat MD Series #4)

Day 360 : The same kind of restless

Lumunok ako. "Okay. Twenty counts."

Hindi ko na naman alam kung saan ako titingin nang magsimula siyang tumitig. I could feel his eyes on me as if his stare could touch me.

I was counting in my head. Six counts pa lang.

Seven.

Eight.

"Jianna..."

I automatically raised my eyes on him. Naramdaman kong mas uminit ang kamay niyang nakapatong sa kamay ko.

"Do you know why there are two hundred eight blue roses for you?" he asked.

Umiling ako. I mean, I have a hunch but a hunch is not definite.

"Because for two hundred and eight days, I think of you. I long for you."

He took my breath with every word.

"So, sorry for staring but it's hard not to," dagdag niya pa. "I miss you."

Nakalimutan ko 'yung binibilang ko.

"I miss you, too," bulong ko, bago manlaki ang mata nang marinig ang sarili kong boses. "I mean..."

Lumapad ang ngiti niya. Tumungo naman ako.

Good grief! Why am I like this? Why the hell am I being shy when I confessed to him first? Nabasted na nga niya 'ko.

But he showed himself without notice and told me he's going to court me when I don't even know what it really means. He even told me he loves me. Hindi ako prepared.

Nag-init uli ang pisngi ko nang maalala ang tatlong salita na 'yun. Gosh, I want to hear him say it again but I couldn't ask.

"Twenty count's over," untag ni Harry. "Go to the comfort room. I'll try to stare less pagbalik mo."

Tumango ako.

"Go now."

"Bitawan mo muna 'yung kamay ko," ungot ko.

"Ay, hawak ko pa pala," aniya at ngumiti. Pinisil niya ang palad ko bago bitiwan.

Nanlalambot ang tuhod ko nang magsimulang maglakad.

" 'Wag kang masyadong matagal, Aling Jia. Baka ma-miss uli kita," pahabol niya.

Hindi na 'ko lumingon. Baka masilaw ako sa ngiti niya at sumubsob sa sahig.

Damn it, Harry. At least, let me breathe.

***
I took a good fifteen minutes to finally convince myself that I could make it through the day without a cardiac arrest. I let everything sink in—Harry's with me, he wants to be with me, and he missed me. 'Yung part about sa ligaw, itatanong ko na lang siguro since hindi ko naiintindihan.

I composed a message to Neah to tell her I'm with Harry.

Pagbalik ko sa table, nando'n na ang pagkain.

"I hope you're still hungry kahit ang dami mo nang ininom na tubig," sabi ni Harry sa'kin.

Sandaling nagtama ang mata namin pagsulyap ko sa kanya pero sabay din naming binawi. I guess he'll be true to his words about staring less.

"May itatanong pala ako..." simula ko habang kumakain kami.

"Hm?"

"How long are you going to stay here?"

"Ikaw? How long are you going to stay here?" balik niya.

"Ako?"

"Yeah."