Girl of Never : Days to Love (Chat MD Series #4)

Day 26 : Rain, thunder, lightning

Rain, thunder, lightning
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I watched Harry from the dark corner of the room, hidden from his view. It was midnight and he was still working. Office na lang niya ang may bukas na ilaw.

Babalik na sana ako sa sleeping quarters para maghandang matulog (at patayan siya ng supply ng kuryente) nang marinig ko ang mabigat na pagpatak ng ulan. Napatingala ako. When I checked on Harry, he was looking up, too.

If it's raining... he'll surely remember Neah.

Napabuntonghininga ako.

What's it to me if he remembers her? He loves her. He would remember her whenever there is a trigger.

Nilingon ko si Harry at nakitang natigilan siya sa pagtatrabaho. Nakatungo siya sa chart na sigurado akong hindi na niya binabasa. Nakakuyom ang kamao niya.

Tumalikod ako at nagpunta sa common room. I took the pack of coffee beans from the cupboard. I opened the coffee brewer and proceeded to make coffee. I made sure it's for two.

Then, I opened my email and proceeded to chat.

Me : Busy?

He saw the message but didn't respond. I sent another.

Me : Umuulan.

Thunder roared. I held my breath and count to three. Not this night. I won't be afraid of thunder tonight.

Him : Yeah.

Me : Coffee?

I could feel his indecision even without a reply.

Me : I made two cups.

When he said okay, I sighed.

Inilagay ko ang dalawang cups sa pwesto namin sa long table. I put everything else that we needed, too — milk, sugar cubes, and creamer.

Nakaupo na 'ko sa pwesto ko nang pumasok si Harry sa silid. Ang tipid ng ngiti niya.

"Coffee," sabi ko lang sa kanya. I didn't try to sound cheerful. Alam ko namang walang magiging epekto.

Tahimik siyang naupo sa pwesto niya. He looked at his cup of coffee. Iniurong ko ang flask ng gatas, garapon ng asukal, at garapon ng creamer.

He looked at me. "May problema ka ba? You're not as cheerful tonight."

"There are nights that aren't for cheerfulness," sagot ko lang at tipid na ngumiti.

At paano akong magkukunwaring masaya kung nakikita ko siyang ganito? He looked lost in the rain—in pain.

Kumulog nang malakas. Napabuga ako ng hangin. Hinawakan ko ang cup ko ng kape para makalma ang panginginig ko. Thunder always trigger sad and scary memories.

But I should be able to ignore it by now. It's just a vibration of air particles affected by lightning. It doesn't mean anything.

And I'm with Harry. I'm not alone.

Harry sipped from his cup. I did, too.

Itinuon ko ang atensyon ko sa pagkakatungo niya sa cup niya.

"What if... time can flow in reverse. Would you want it?" he asked me.

And what would you do if it could? I wanted to ask him but didn't. Umiling na lang ako. "Don't you know how many regrets people keep during their lifetime? If time could flow in reverse, we will always be stuck in the past. For something to work the way we want it, we would always go back. We would impose our will with time. Maybe that's why time only flows one way—to the future."