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NINETEEN

He placed his hands on my hips and pushed me more against him. I could tell he was getting a bit excited. 'Pretty eyes, we need to do the dishes and I have tons of other things to do' I said with puppy eyes. His grin faded and my grin grew. I walked away from his lap, and got the dirty dishes. I placed them in the dishwasher and then I turned back. His eyes were longing for me.

'You have to be kidding right Alex?' he asked me. 'No what are you talking about, you know what to do then, I'm sorry pretty eyes I need to do some schoolwork but here some paper tissues I am sure you can help yourself' I said and placed the tissues in his hand.

At that moment he snapped, 'I don't want freaking tissues I want you around me, I want to be inside you don't you get that?' he said trapping between his hot and bothered body and the kitchen counter.

'Look I'm sorry babe but I need to do some schoolwork maybe later alright, and babe don't ever think you can tease and I don't you won't win' I said smirking, kissing his cheek and disappearing to his office I claimed to do my homework. Where I can work in peace.

Finally the last sentence, of this evening at last. I closed my textbooks and walked out of the office. I heard sounds coming from the bedroom, I walked in put my textbooks back in my schoolbag and walked to the large king size bed. This bed is even too big for just the two of us. He looked at the tv, still grumpy I could see it at his face.

'You are not still moping about that little thing at dinner are you?' I asked. 'Of course I am still moping about it' he said.

'Babe why didn't you help yourself then?'

'Because what is the fun in that?' he asked me.

I giggled.

Before I knew it I was put on my back and he was on top of me. 'Now you can't move away from me'

'What are you gonna do?' I asked, 'I want to do many things with you but that has to come from you and only you till then I am fantasizing about the things I want to do and I am going to kiss you right now' he said and kissed my sweet lips.

His lips traveled to my neck and collarbone, and of course he is leaving his mark for everyone to see. 'What do you think they are going to say about this tomorrow at school?'

'Then you'll explain that you have this amazing boyfriend that is crazy about you and isn't afraid to show it off to the world' he said and kissed me once again before we fell asleep in each others arms.

I stared at the pills in the little orange bottle, I can't take them I just can't. And I am doing better without them, I am not having a lot of nightmares anymore. It's hard to talk about yes, but I am doing well. Not that my therapist is going to agree.

It's been what like three weeks since I got them, and since then she has been easy on me but insisted I would be taking them by now. She is going to give me a speech at least that is what I think.

'What is that?' Tim asked a little nervous and looks at me and the pills. 'Don't worry, it's my medication for ptsd' I whispered. 'You are doing better, you aren't have that much nightmares anymore or daydreams. Dozing off in the past. They work' he said.

'That is just the thing I am not taking them, but I am getting better' I said.

'Why aren't you taking them?' he asked and rubbed my arms soothing between his warm hands. 'I am so scared that I will take too much or that I won't be able to stop' I whispered.

'Then I will help you, this is important'

'You don't understand, it's not like you take them away and I will stop. Then I need to come clean again and I don't know if I can go in that circle once again. I don't think I have the courage to do that'.