Twisted Paths (SMBB)

Chapter 6 - Missing Him

It's been a week. No Rover anymore wala na sya,Malaya na sya...at patuloy parin akong kinukulit nina mom and dad na lumabas na.

They know what exactly happened in the hospital hinde na rin ako nagtataka pa don. Ang sakit pala sobra? I want to die. I'm dying! My heart is fragile. I don't feel anything but heartbreak and so much pain.

Hinde ko pala kaya. Hindeng Hinde ko pala makakaya!

May kumakatok sa pinto. I know! It's Mom and Dad.

"Please Mom. Not now! Please..." My tears fell. I'am desperate! I want him back! Mamamatay ako kapag hinde!

"Hey bivi! It's me. Shile! Talk to me vi! Please." Halata sa boses nito ang nahihirapan. May problema rin ba ang kanyang kaibigan?. Kung may problema nga ito ay padamihan sila kung maari.

I didn't respond but the door is open.

Dali daling bumagsak ang mga luha nito at napahawak sa bibig.Marahil ay naaawa rin ito.

"Vi? What happen to you? Omygod! Anong ginawa mo sa sarili mo!" She said hysterically.

"Calm down"

"How can I fucking calm down huh? Tell me! Your Impossible! What happen to your head? Kaya ba hinde mo pinapapunta sila tita dito kase dahil dyan sa ulo mo?"

I just nod.

Yeah. I don't want them to worried. Kasalanan ko naman kung baket ako nagkaroon nito!

"Vi naman!"

I just hug her. Not to keep her mouth shut but to feel that I'm not alone. I want to lean to somebody to comfort me when I feel my body and Specially when my heart shattered into pieces.

Sa buong buhay ko, Kay rover lang ako narereject ng sobra. Ano bang wala sakin na meron si cole? O kahit na sinong babae dyan. Ano bang wala sakin.

"Baket ganun shi? Mahirap ba talaga?. Mahirap bang mahalin ang tulad ko?" Napahagulgol ako ng maalala ko nanaman ang usapan namin.

Puro sakit nalang ang nararamdam ko.

"I'am very much thankful rare. Very very much. I'am thankful to have you and Mom and Dad because you gave me another journey to live. Alam mo naman kung saan ako nanggaling hinde ba? At nagpapasalamat ako dahil kinupkop nyo ko. Kayo... "

Nakatingin lang ako sakanya. Hinde nagsisink in sa utak ko kumg anong gusto nyang ipunto.

"Tuwang tuwa ako ng malaman kong may magkukupkop saakin. At nalaman ko rin na may roon silang anak na babae,Nakakatuwa hindi ba? Matagal ko ng pangarap yon... And thank to God. Specially to our parents... Pero nung nalaman kong may gusto ka saken Lumayo ako sayo.. Pero very wrong pala yung ginawa ko.. Wrong move!"

Umiling-Iling ako. Ayaw ko syang patapusin. Ayaw ko! Natatakot ako! Kahit anong taboy nya babalik at babalik parin ako kaya useless yan.

"Mas lalo ka pa atang nainlove e!" pagak nyang tawa."Pero Rare listen. I'am Madly and fucking deeply inlove with cole. So much! "

Wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ang humagulgol..

"No.... Please Rover please..."

Umiling ito. Lumakad sya at pinunasan ang aking mga luha. This is the end... I can feel it. It so much hurt.

"Listen Rare... I love you because you are my sister. Pero hinde dahil iniibig kita. Mahal kita at tingin ko lang sayo ay kapatid ko. Pinapahalagahan kita dahil mahal kita bilang kapatid ko."

Napaiyak ako ng maalala ko ang sinabi nya. Rover is my Heart.. He is my heart because I gave it to him. He stole my heart but he wreck and shattered it into pieces. How pain he gave me? So much...

He always rejected me. He always lead his way to rid in me. I'am the one who always there to his side. I'am the one who always care for him even if he always don't need me.

"Vi tama na... Set him free. If you truly loves him then set him free. Gave him what he wants. Be happy Vi. .. Stay strong for you. Always remember that I'am always here for you. You can count on me."

"I can't."

"You can vi! You can! Ayaw mo lang tanggapin because you truly loves him but Vi! Look at you. You look like trash. Sorry for the term but You are V. You are."