Breakdown

Kabanata XXI

A/N:

Simula sa chapter nato, gagawan ko ng Pov si Kyle. Hehe Enjoy.

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KYLE

I'm so pissed! Fucking pissed! I want to throw punches on Dave's face. He's been smiling and laughing with her and it boils my blood even more to think that he is giving her a good company.

"Uy, uy, easy dude! Baka masapak mo ako! Wala akong kasalanan."

Nag dirty finger ako sa harap ni Ki. I'm jealous as fuck and I hate it. Gusto kong bigyan siya ng oras. Time is all she needs right? And I am fucking giving it to her. But when I saw her with Dave, all my patience and worries mixed up. He found someone new. Someone that could replace Chris in her heart, and rips me off to think that it is not me. I smiled bitterly.

"Tsk. Selos na naman. Ano ba! Maraming chics oh?! Nandiyan si Kz at Althea! Waiting on your moves dude. Tingnan mo! Ang ganda ng katawan, makinis at malambot ang balat. Come on, lapitan natin."

Tinitigan ko ang mga babaeng tinuturo ni Ki. They are looking at our way. Smiling seductively. Kumaway sila. Kumaway kami pabalik. Tumawa si Ki at siniko ako.

"That's how we do it Kai! Amazing isn't it?"

I shrug my shoulders. Inabot niya ang isang bote ng alak. Kinuha ko iyon ang tinungga habang nakatingin sa banda kung saan masayang nag-uusap sina Kim at Dave. That sight alone stinks. Iniwas ko ang tingin.

"Shut up Ki. Alam ko namang gusto mo talaga si Kz. Sige na. Lapitan mo na."

Tumaas ang dalawang kilay niya.

"I can go there without you telling me."

Napailing na lang ako. So fucking annoying. Basta babae talaga kumikinang ang mga mata.

Uminom ulit ako. I miss the bitter taste of the beer inside my mouth. It's been a week of no communication with her and now that I saw her, I can't lie the fact that I miss her. I miss her so much. I miss all the things about her. Nang hawakan niya ang kamay ko kanina, I nearly lost it. The feeling of her warm hand touching mine was enough to please me. Ganun ka dali.

Hindi naman mangyayari to kung napigilan ko lang sana. Kung sana naghintay pa ako. Pero hindi. Hindi ko nakayanang makita siyang hawak ng iba, kausap ng iba at mahalin ng iba. Gusto ko ako lang. Kaya nasabi ko sa kanya. Inamin ko sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko, pero nagalit siya. But I understand her. She was processing everything, and moving on at the same time so I can't blame her. I sigh. After everything, she is all I ever wanted. Mula noon hanggang ngayon.

I've been waiting for ages. I liked her, before she knew me. That was the time when Miguel told me about her. I got interested and now where did it leads me? Hindi ako yung tipong mabait sa iba, pero nang nakaharap ko siya parang bumaliktad ang sikmura ko. Don't laugh at me because it's true. I tried to be nice to her but every time I did, she will be irritated. So I became a person she wants me to be. I always bully her and made fun of her so in that way she would look at me. And she did.

The most painful heart break I ever had is when I heard that she was having a relationship with a man named Chris. Nagwala ako sa isang bar nung araw na iyon. Galit na galit ako sa kanya. Ilang buwan lang silang nagkakilala sila na agad?! Habang kami ilang taon nang magkakilala. Pakiramdam ko tinraydor ako nung panahon na iyon. Perp tinaggap ko dahil alam kong minahal niya ang lalaking yun. Ang another news na nagpa-kulo na naman ng ulo ko ay nang nalaman kong niloloko siya ng gagong ex niya.

After nilang maghiwalay, binugbog ko ng ilang beses ang gago. Wala siyang karapatang saktan ang pinoprotektahan ko! Pero nagpapasalamat narin ako sa nangyari, nang dahil doon naging malapit kami. I never thought that one day we would talked without getting pissed or without yelling at each other. Ang mga ngiti niya, tawa at pagsusungit niya. Lahat ginusto ko.