My Stepbrother Is The Father Of My Baby (✔)

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Hardship

Zalean

I moved out into Krystal's house. Nagpunta muna ako sa bahay, but i made sure na wala doon si Cavill at hindi ako nakita ng mga katulong.

I am glad na hindi ako hinahanap ngayon nila Cavill. I am not ready to face him now. Mas nangingibabaw pa ang galit ko sa kanya.

Kinuha ko ang mga importanteng bagay na kailangan ko like credit cards, cellphone and some clothes to wear.

Naghanap din ako ng apartment na matutuluyan, at first it is really hard. Wala akong masyadong makita. And i am glad that after almost a day of finding and apartment ay nakakita rin ako ng isa. It was a small apartment with a mini kitchen, a comfort room, a mini sala at isang kwarto. It is kinda dirty pero much better, kesa naman wala talaga akong matulugan at matulog na lang sa kalye. At mas makakatipid pa ako dito.

Before i was just going to burn my cash into stuff that is not necessary. Expensive bags, clothes,going to the bar and get wasted. Ngayon i need to learn how to budget my money not just only for my self but also for my baby.

I don't know how to start my life now. Nasanay akong palaging nandiyan si Daddy para saluhin ako every time i get my self into trouble. But now i need to change myself. I don't really know how would i do that. Pero isa lang ang sigurado ako, i will try my best to be a best mother.

For now I decided to get a job. Nag apply ako sa mga maliliit lang na mga grocery stores and thankfully na hire ako. My first trimester was really hard.

Every morning a have to vomit, kahit wala naman talaga akong maisuka. I have to work 2 part time jobs so that i could buy my vitamins and my own food.

All the way, i realized that i could be independent. Noon yung mga bagay na akala ko ay hindi ko kayang gawin ay nagagawa ko na ngayon.

I could cooked now, well my first attemps was worse. Muntik ng masunog ang mini kitchen ko dito sa apartment. Pero sa mga ilang practice ko ay naging okay naman siya.

Pero minsan nasusunog pa rin, pero minsan okay naman. I just need a little bit of practice. I was just so thankful dahil mabait si Aling Meding ang kapit bahay ko at minsan ay binibigyan niya ako ng sobrang pagkain niya.

Aling Meding is living alone. Napaka bait niya sa akin. Noong minsan nga na nakipagkwentuhan ako sa kanya. She shared something about her daughter who passed away 3 years ago. May malubhang sakit daw ito kaya ito namatay.

She said that if her daughter was alive now, she was just about my age. And she said that she always reminded about her late daughter through me.

Kaya naman nakahanap ako ng nanay through Aling Meding and I am thankful na inaalalayan niya ako dahil alam niya na buntis ako.

Time passes by and it was my due date. Sabi ng health worker doon sa barangay ay anytime ay pwede na daw akong manganak.

During my last trimester ay napagpasyahan ko na pansamantalang tumigil muna sa pagtatrabaho. And now medyo nagtitipid ako dahil hindi na rin gaano kalakihan ang pera ko sa bangko. Marami kasi akong pinagkagastusan.

And after some days, nanganak na nga ako. I always pray na sana hindi ako mahirapan sa panganganak ko and thank God hindi naman.

I know his gender now. He is a boy. Napagpasyahan ko kasi noon na hindi na ako magpapaultrasound dahil nagtitipid ako and i just wanted to surprise myself. Kaya naman neutral colors ang binili kong mga damit sa baby. He's really healthy and very handsome.

I named him Ryko Arkile Ramirez, he is so very cute and handsome. He have this eyes that whenever i stare at it ay parang may gusto itong ipahiwatig na hindi ko mawari kung ano. Hindi din siya iyakin kaya naman hindi ako nahihirapan na magalaga sa kanya. I think he really is a very good boy.