whatever is needed to be said

college applications

I am lost
in a sea of files
and paper cuts
drowning in crisp,
black words—
Times New Roman
point 12 font—
bleeding into blank
space after blank
space
name, extracurriculars, service
name, extracurriculars, service
name, extracurriculars, service
who do you want to be?
what do you want to do
when you grow up?
where do you want to go?
who, what, when, where
faster faster faster
time does not
stop and
breathing does
not slow
who what when where
four years into two years
into four days
into tomorrow
the bleeding has not stopped
the stars are yet to align
breathing picks up
nothing left to find
papers suffocate me as
they are shoved down my throat
where do I see myself in ten years?
make sure it's unique
name, extracurriculars, service
who, what, when, where
who who who
who let the dogs out
stop
concentrate
the rest of my life counts
on this one moment
as I
fall into oblivion and
indecision
drowning in the crisp, black
words on the
overly white paper
as time passes and the future
gets smaller and smaller
choices fade
like smiles of my façade
lost, confused, screwed
I want to be interesting,
but so does everyone else