All I wanted was you..

I am still broken

I went home and laid across my bed.

you think I would be going over what I would be singing at the club tonight but no my mind wondered to things like...

\"What the fuck am I going to wear?\"

yeah that was me alright.

I didn\'t stress about what I was going to sing about.

More like what clean clothes did I have.

My loft door open and there came a voice that boomed through out the place

\"Belinda Morgan!! Your ass better be here!!\"

yeah that was Dan alright. He usually never called me by my first name. So he always called me Morgan on the account it sounded way cooler to his ears.

\"What is it Dan?\"

he ran over

\"Oh good you are here. Steve just called me said you are bumped to last since you are the show shopper and no one likes to follow you.\"

\"Okey dokey.\"

I didn\'t move I just didn\'t want to.

\"Whats up with you today?\"

\"Ah nothing.\"

\"Nu uh there is something spill it.\"

\"Its nothing really.\"

\"Well alright start getting ready girl I will be back in 20 minutes so we can head out.\"

\"Ok.\"

I laid there for a while thinking about Rob.

And how strange he was.

I mean he was just a guy I met.

Well not really met just...and then my mind wondered to...

no! no no no. I cannot ...I mean cannot think about HIM.

I said after him I will never and I mean never date anyone.

It hurt too much after what happened.

Everything that happened.

I got up and got ready and then Dan and I were on our way.

Dan decided he was gonna burst whats been bothering out of me.

\"Morgan?\"

\"Yeah?\"

\"Whats wrong? I have known you for what 22 odd years and I know when something is up.\"

\"I...never mind.\"

\"Belinda Morgan spill it.\"

\"I just...I don\'t know I am just..its nothing.\"

\"I am not going to tell you again.\"

\"Fine!\"

I took a deep breathe.

\"There was this guy today and he looked at me...I mean really looked at me Danny. No guys ever look at me the way he did. and I just cant...I cant.\"

\"Morgan...come on. You can\'t keep doing this. Its been years. Years.\"

\"I know but I just can\'t. I ran out as soon as he got close.\"

\"when did you meet him?\"

\"Today. I mean its stupid to think he could feel something in one day but not the way he looked at me. I just cant. I just hope never to run into him again. I will just work, and sing and that\'s it.\"