Letters to Cleo #Wattys2016

Chapter 33

"Saan tayo magdidinner?" I asked.

"Lalabas na naman tayo? Saan na namang restaurant? Hindi ka ba nagsasawa sa pagkain sa labas?" ang sagot naman n'ya.

"Well, we have two choices. It's either we buy food and get it to go or we cook. But between those choices parang mas safe na magtake out na lang tayo. What do you think?"

"Take out?"

"Oo, pareho naman tayong hindi magaling magluto. Unless you want to be adventurous and take the chance that we'll burn our dinner and end up ordering from fastfood."

"Hmmm... may point ka d'yan. Pero nagsasawa na talaga akong kumain sa labas eh. Ay teka! Usap tayo mamaya. Nandito na 'yung doctor na hinihintay ko."

"Okay. Bye."

"Bye S. I love you." And then the line went dead.

I still find it so cute that she calls me S. By the way, S stands for Superman. Since that night that we talked about me being her Superman ay pinandigan na namin 'yun at tinawag n'ya akong Superman. Pero after a while napagod s'ya kasi daw ang haba kaya she just used S. Ang cute di ba?

Pero teka! Sandali lang! Did I just hear her say something? Did she say those three words to me? I could be wrong pero I don't think magkakamali ako sa pagkakarinig ng mga salitang 'yon. I mean I've been waiting for her to say it to me.

I immediately redialed her number para makasigurado pero panay ring lang ang naririnig ko. Siguro nandun na s'ya sa loob ng clinic. I guess it'll have to wait until later. But how do I open it up? Will I go right out and ask her if she said I love you to me? Parang conceited naman ng dating? Pero paano? Should I just wait for her to talk about it? Eh paano kung hindi n'ya i-open?

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But when later came, I couldn't find my voice. I mean, I've been looking forward to this particular time. I was psyching myself earlier about asking her but now that we're here, I just couldn't do it. Hindi ko alam how to start. I don't know what to say.

"Huy! Anong nangyayari sa 'yo? Okay ka lang ba?" she suddenly said.

I don't know how long I've been staring at the spam she's cooking while thinking kaya siguro tinawag n'ya ang pansin ko. Oo, we decided to eat at my house and she volunteered to cook... spam. Pero kahit spam lang 'yan I'm sure it'll be the best spam I'll ever have. S'ya na ang nagluto tapos s'ya pa ang ka-share ko. Haaay... I think this is what wedded bliss is all about. Ha... ha... ha! I know I'm thinking so way into the future but a man can dream, right?

"Problema mo?"

"Ako? Wala ah."