The Raven

Chapter Fifty- Four | Figuring Out

It was the next day, and I was still in the hospital with our baby, Killian went home to freshen up however I was finding the new struggle of being a new Mom and that was breastfeeding. Dio wasn't latching on and it was only making me feel stressed because I wanted him to be able to feed without any problems, I thought it was something wrong with me.

The midwife explained that all babies have different reactions to breastfeeding and they can have my breast milk but in a bottle instead so it's easier but comfortable for both of us. The midwife helped me to understand because I wasn't prepared to understand the simplest methods, but she honestly helped me.

After listening to what she was explaining she gave me a breast pump and explained how it worked, I nodded as I gently placed Dio down on my lap, and I had my left hand under his head for support. I started to place the breast pump onto me, at first I was a bit startled by its technique but eventually, it was okay just a bit fiddly.

My mind was at ease that I knew I was able to feed Dio, I looked down and smiled at his precious face, he was adorable. His beautiful eyes looking up at me, I couldn't help but get emotional realising that my dream of becoming a Mom finally come true, I gently placed my finger inside his palm, his fingers wrapped around mine.

I felt connected to him and it was an amazing feeling, I wiped my teary eyes and couldn't stop smiling at him, he made me feel so protected by him. Now I realise how my parents felt over the tiniest things that we do because when I look at Dio and just think about the smallest things that could happen, I get overprotected straight away. I guess it's just mother's instincts.

Thereon, the midwife left and I finally was able to feed Dio without any problems which made me feel better, I heard a knock on the door as I covered my chest with the blanket but I had Dio resting in my arms as I fed him. My parents walked into the room with a lovely bouquet, I smiled as I looked at my Dad to see him already crying. It made my heart melt.

"Gosh, he's so beautiful and tiny," he said as he walked over to the bed and stroked my hair gently.

"The nurses said he's a tiny baby but he's healthy," I sounded gently as I continued to bottle-feed him.

My Mom noticed the breast pumps as she looked at me "Did he not latch on baby?" She asked.

I shook my head "We tried for an hour but I guess he didn't want to do it, so my midwife suggested the breast pumps instead and he's more comfortable with the bottle, but she did say that I would find it easier," I said, my Mom nodded.

"Elliott was the same, wasn't he love?" She said looking at my Dad, as he nodded but he had a constant eye on Dio, I couldn't help but feel emotional over the fact that he was already protected over Dio which made me melt. But I understood quickly that it was his first Grandson and he felt connected just the same way that I have. Which means a lot to me.

Later on, it was just Killian and me in the room with our baby in his arms, I was trying to rest just for a little bit whilst Killian and Dio bonded, my eyes were slightly shut the room was dark enough to be able to get a few hours of sleep, but each time I fluttered my eyes, I saw Killian looking at Dio with soft eyes, I smiled.

• Killian POV •

Dio was lying on my chest, I laid back on the armchair beside the bed, and I looked up to see Alessia drifting off to sleep, however, I looked down to see Dio's eyes slightly opening, I smiled as I looked at him and kissed his head ever so gently.

"I'm your Dada," I whispered to him, he made a little noise which made me smile a lot and melted me, I traced my fingers down his back, I couldn't believe I was a Dad and married to this beautiful woman.

Everything I felt was becoming so soothing, I looked down at Dio and I was already a proud Dad, a proud husband. I'm just glad I met her that day or I couldn't picture my life without her and him.