La Santa Muerte

You have to let it go

araceli: im not shady like this

maricela; your not your friend is but thank you ill be having a watch on you ignore it you say anything to anyone about this it'll be your whole family ill be here tomorrow night og

og: ill be right here mija you already know i got you

maricela: thank you so much araceli go threw your friends and see whos really there for you and whos holding you back

they walked away and left ..

maricela: go to his place

emiliano: why?

maricela; im so angry right now its not even funny

emiliano: maricela

maricela; its not even about him its a lot of something else and i didnt get to kill anyone dammit

emiliano: ok sorry

they got to giovanis .. he opened the front door as she walked in mad

giovani: the fuck is wrong with you? its just career day ill wear all black but we gotta agree on how we're lying my dad used to say construction?

emiliano: i would step back real fucking quick

she went into the bar and took out a bottle and took a swig

giovani: whats going on?

maricela; im not mad at you well i am but im not because you killed smokey i told David it was me dont stress it .. where you fucking a bitch named nataly

giovani stepped back

maricela; you where ok shes talking shit to a seller and its not only to that seller but to a neighborhood in the south side

giovani: look mari we where

maricela; no i know and i respect it i wanted you to go fuck around but why would you go talk to a fucking local to a normal bitch off the fucking streets come on?

giovani: it wasn't even like that we didnt fuck or nothing like that? the bitch uh she was chill we talked because she was buying off the homie i was there she flirted with me so we talked i didnt even know she knew who i was

maricela: well she knew and she started saying shit about me but im not really mad about that im gonna fucking hang her tomorrow i got her homegirl to sell her out

giovani: then what are you mad at?

maricela: i have to forgive my fucking mother for hurting me and damaging me the way she fucking did or ill never get fucking better nothing will ever go right for me but how do i forgive that fucking bitch! how! she fucking did this to me she fucked me up so bad i only calm down by fucking killing now i cant calm down emiliano you promised me a body

giovani pulled out a bat

giovani: go hit whatever you want in the garage just go ham dont trip its silenced out also

she took the bat and went off ..

emiliano: you hit it didnt you?

giovani: fuck yea i did with a rubber i ain't stupid bitch cant say shes pregnant shes 20 she works at the burger joint shes been blowing me up for a while but i just hit it once nothing serious i didnt even enjoy it though

emiliano: you didnt? haha what?

giovani: yea cuz i love mari its her i wanna be with i was just trying i guess to forget her but how do i forget someone i love .. that bitch was just a nut my mind wasn't in it like that

emiliano :your both fucked up in the head

emiliano opened the garage door she had took it all out

emiliano: maricela!!

she stopped and turned taking deep breaths

maricela: why did the bitch not love me? why did she have to break me like this? i didnt have to be like this?

giovani pushed emiliano aside and walked up to her and took the bat way and hugged her tight

maricela; why me..

giovani: you did nothing wrong it's not your fault Mari it's not it's her she was broken and she couldn't live with you being perfect but she's gone and you have to let it go just let it go it's hurting you

She stepped back and destroyed a shelf

Maricela: all I ever wanted was to be loved!! That's all I wanted!!

Giovani stepped back as emiliano pulled him back.. Maricela stepped back and sighed

Maricela: I'm so rich I have it all I have my children I have it all but yet she's still in my mind ruining me also I fucking heard you why lie so you hit it?

Giovani: the room is silenced how did you hear that?

Maricela: the door isn't dumbass what else did you do so I don't look like a fucking fool

Giovani: nothing just one time thing it was wack and I walked away been ignoring her it's been months

She nodded and threw the bat to the side

Emiliano: if you don't let what she did to you go it's going to be what kills you .. your never going to have the answers your never going to know why she broke you like this why she didn't love you but you can do different you are different

Maricela: that's easy to fucking say but

Emiliano: why do you think Javier got us together? Why do you think he pushed me to talk to to get close to you? My mother used me as a child to get money out of my father and kept me in the states she would starve me beat me do it all until I ran off she was killed in a car accident that I survived if you get what I mean

Maricela looked at him

Emiliano: i wasn't abused like you and I'm sorry I'm sorry she hurt you like this I'm sorry your sperm donor hurt you to.. I can't fix it I can't go back and save you like I was saved but huh if you don't let it go and move on from it it'll control for the rest of your life and you'll never be able to live your true life

Maricela: if this isn't my true life then what is? What do I do then?