La Santa Muerte

Im broken

giovani: babe?

she got up

maricela: ill have you sent back any worrys just call my numbers on there already

Mauricio: can we talk? get to know each other?

maricela: ill be out there in a week for a funeral we'll talk then .. stay safe ok?

he nodded and hugged her .. she stood there coldly .. she hugged him back

Mauricio: im sorry for anything they did i know them being gone wont fix it im sorry .. im proud to be related to you though i cant wait to get to know you

she nodded as he was walked out

giovani: you don't look to good?

maricela: i wanna go home .. lets go this shits over

he nodded and took her home she checked on the kids showered and went to bed

giovani: she was just laughing doing what she loves .. we where just joking around?

marta: mijo just go lay down with her and hug her shes in pain right now

he nodded

marta: i have the baby monitor don't worry but also mijo are you ok?

giovani: i don't know how i feel anymore .. call me if anything

she nodded as he walked up to the room

giovani: get up come on

she turned to him

maricela: im tired i don't wanna go anywhere right now gio

giovani: out to bolcany bring your blanket to

she sighed and got up and followed him and sat down he lit a blunt

maricela: weed doesn't do it for me

giovani: well its something isn't it? why don't you tell me whats hurting?

maricela: you know whats hurting already .. my hearts just broken

giovani: i know it is but you where just ok? laughing? doing what you love? im broken to but having you and the kids keeps me going?

maricela: the love keeps you going but that pain is still inside right? so your in a way faking it pushing the sadness aside im doing the same i can only go so far .. yea i have you guys i have what i want but seeing there bodys just gone like nothing is like whatever it didn't fix anything? hes still dead he still wont walk threw the back door talking shit he still wont be there to pick up vivi from school like she asks for .. she'll never get another hug from him .. the bastard is dead gone but it didn't fix a thing now im just stuck with all this pain

he passed her the blunt .. she shook her head

maricela: no im breastfeeding

giovani: pump and dump or do you wanna get shit face drunk?

she took the blunt and smoked it

giovani: what do you think he would be telling you right now

maricela: huh i could hear it now ..

giovani: what?

maricela: this is not the way to be .. suck it up and keep going for him he told me when esperanza passed away and i know thats what he wants now but its hard but i know hes with her now shes safe but i miss him and it breaks my heart to see vivi hug his picture as she sleeps

giovani: when my grandpa died i was down deep i was getting high doing dumb shit he caught me at a drive by i had almost gotten shot i think i was to out of it but he just told me this ain't the way to deal with your pain its not the way to deal with anything put your sadness into something make your grandpa proud then he started to talk about when he dies i better not fuck up that i better keep the family business alive and make it the biggest in the west that he'll be watching to make sure but he also said this was years ago ill love you from wherever i am i know i wasn't perfect never will i be but ill always love you and thats how i been pushing threw this i know hes with me and i know hes with you too because he loved you so much babe i still remember when he told me about you

she looked at him confused with tears in her eyes

maricela: haha what he tell you?

giovani: he wanted me to come work for you i was like i dont do that recommend shit blah blah he sat me down and was like no i need you to protect her for me i know she'll like you and fall for you shes stuck on this idiot now but i know you'll be perfect for her shes your type but be gentle cuz she'll kill you haha i called his buff but i fell for you the fist night i went out with you

she side smiled and got up and hugged him ..

giovani: it'll be ok babe i promise

maricela: it will be we'll make him proud somehow ..

they smoked for a bit and went to sleep .. she woke up the next morning early

maricela: stay here just in case okill drop her off and go do some stuff and do the lunch and come straight home i have my own men i know they'll protect me over him

giovani: no maricela

maricela: look at who am holding in my arms and look at whos watching cartoons on her iPad at the table they need to be protected more than anything more than me i would die for them and i only trust you to protect them stay here shit wanna know what no school today she can stay home ill do what i need we'll go shopping after for our trip i just need you here ok?

he looked at her serious she walked up to him and gave him javi

maricela: i promise to aim and kill I've learned

he kissed her deeply

giovani: come home please

maricela: i will you cant get rid of me i love you

giovani: i love you to

she grabbed her keys and went and kissed her babygirl head

maricela: no school today ok? when i get home we're gonna go shopping what do you think?

viviana: no school? can i come with you?

maricela: not right now i have work for a bit but daddys here with brother and marta ok? i love you my princess

viviana: i love you too mommy