La Santa Muerte

Time

jocelyn: well take it all one day at a time and im here for you? even if i leave call me talk to me ok?

maricela: i will but im not suicidal i don't wanna die anymore so that's good right?

jocelyn: true haha

she side smiled and helped her babygirl as she fed lil javi

the say went by viviana was stuck to her hip helping her at every move

viviana: can i sleep with you?

maricela: no its ok baby im gonna put him in his crib you need your rest so you can get up early and get ready for school ok?

viviana: ok mommy wheres tata?

she side smiled and kissed her head

maricela: he left babygirl don't worry hes ok

she nodded and turned over maricela went to there room

giovani: you haven't talked to me much today?

maricela: i know sorry ..

she sat down on the rocking chair and fed javi ..

maricela; are you ok?

giovani: yea watching you be a great mom is helping me i miss the old man but i know he would be mad if he saw me down ...

maricela: yea that's how im thinking to ..

she burped javi and passed him to giovani

giovani: you ok? you look in pain? babe?

maricela: the iv pain meds finally gave out fully its been hard to move

giovani: if its hard to move and your in pain why don't you take some medicine to take away the pain?

maricela: help me up please

he put javi in his crib and helped her up

giovani: why don't you take some? want me to get them?

she shook her head as she walked to the office with the baby monitor

giovani: mari?

maricela: if i take one ill take way more than i should i need to ignore this pain it'll be ok

she sat down and looked at her table

maricela: have they told you anything?

he sat down and looked at her

giovani: i wouldn't let you go that deep if you don't take something and rest you'll only hurt yourselfmore

maricela: i know but i would find a way to get more you know its easy i don't even wanna smoke if im pumping and breast feeding him ill be okbut tell me what happened?is that man alive?

he nodded

giovani: hes alive i made sure he gotten tooken care of hes in recovery at the local clinic its private covered with security

she nodded

maricela: good im gonna have a sit down with alonso figure it all out then do what needs to be done in .. now his funeral

giovani: no wait

maricela: what?

giovani: i want to be there for this they killed my father the last person i had close to my blood .. they came after you and our boy i want in also you have to look into alonso

maricela: alonso? what do you mean?

giovani: he fucked this up he said he had it tooken care of and he let a right hand man in what if he just let it happen i have my men watching that clinic hard he wont leave and alonso isn't liking it im already hearing it

she sat back and nodded

giovani: ill continue to push security and have them watched i want you to heal from this babe come back strong

maricela: i will but if your going to come with me and do more things i need someone that i can trust to watch the kids .. mostly now

giovani: i can look but out here?

maricela: no no one from here im calling esperanzas nanny i loved her and she told me i could call her if i fly her out i know she'll help even if we decide to go back ..

giovani: ok call her but do you?

maricela: this isn't home to me anymore it took someone i loved but im not going to leave my hard work i will run it all before we leave..

she sat back and looked at things

giovani: you know its Friday

maricela; yea and? then its Saturday?

giovani: the other night before the accident we planned to go out one last time and go to the court do you remember?

she put her phone down and looked at him

maricela: yea i do .. there's no way we can go ut alone or even take the kids out lets wait a bit

giovani: i understand because your in pain but if you all her have her here by what? tuesday?

maricela: you really still wanna marry me after i got your dad killed giovani? hes dead because of me?

he sat looking at her confused

giovani: you didnt kill him? you didnt pull the trigger on him? what are you talking about? i l;love you even more now

she sat back and sighed

maricela: lets wait on everything to calm down and make sure we're good to do it and i wanna be able to walk with no pain it feels like im going to give birth again i swear huh

she otherself up slowly he helped her quickly as the monitor went off

giovani: i got him come on go lay down but ay you can post pone it we're getting married

maricela: we will don't worry

he helped her to bed and he went to check on lil javi .. the night went by she couldn't sleep the pain was causing her to have night mares ...

maricela: vivi!! where are you!!

javier: mija .. you had one job you didnt keep them safe mija?!!

she turned to him he was holding both her baby her heart sunk as she shot up ..

giovani was sitting on the side couch watching tv with lil javi in his arms drinking a bottle

giovani: you ok? you been tossing and talking?

maricela: i keep having nightmares i need those pills i pumps for the day already im losing it ..

she got herself up by force and grabbed them

giovani: ay ay no more than 3?

maricela: you don't get it ok i need to sleep i don't wanna dream

giovani: what are you dreaming tell me?

she shook her head and pored oput more pills he took the bottle from her

giovani: maricela listen to me these are high dosage it can kill you

she sighed and put back 5 and took 3

maricela: happy?

she said smartly as she went back to bed

giovani: happy? you where trying to overdose yourself? think about it?

maricela: it wouldn't have worked but huh fuck im sorry ok .. i keep seeing your dad holding them telling me i had to keep them safe and i didnt it was like iwas looking around in a fire and i couldn't find thembut he had them hugging them both and as i tried running towards him to get them he shook his head and walked away with them disappearing as i screamed for them

giovani: your in pain and you went threw a lot in a couple short days just relax let the pills hit but don't just wake up and decide to take a bunch either its nightmare nothing real everything okim right here with him he smiled for the first time look at him

he sat down next to her she looked at her baby boy and nodded

maricela: i know it'll beok i just need sometime