La Santa Muerte

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she went up to bed some hours went by .. she saw her door open

giovani: you up? we can talk later?

maricela: no come in i cant sleep anyways  haha how was it?

giovani: good just had to straignten out stuff

maricela: i been missing being in the streets i miss my gun that power but did David say anything or marcos?

giovani: davids just been working haven't seen marcos though maybe there waiting on you or emiliano got to them first and i know you miss it the streets miss you its home for you but you gotta be straight before you get back out they cant catch lacking or easily light headed thats bad

maricela: lets hope they dont say a thing i dont wanna deal with it and i know have to be good to get back i will get better the come backs always better

he nodded as he sat on the edge of her bed

giovani: what did you wanna talk about?

maricela: we where both angry the other night i was in pain i know it hurt you too .. i just wanna put it behind us ok?

he nodded and looked down

giovani: im still  sorry ..

she reached for his hand

maricela: its behind us i might not be back 100 percent for a bit be patient with me and please the kids need you i need you to help me with them ok?

giovani: ofcourse babygirl you got me always my family is always first ..

he hugged her tight and kissed her deeply

giovani: i love you and i got you but they need their mother to be healthy and strong and back on her game come on your muerte whatever this is thats going on doesn't define  you this isn't the end .. most importantly im here to hold your hand threw it

she side smiled and hugged him the night went by..

emiliano: i dont like this i dont

maricela: why dont you like it? she isn't going to be lil forever?

emiliano: i dont i just dont gio you ok with this?

giovani: we can look into homeschooling?

maricela: you too are to much haha take her to school dont be crazy shes in 1st grade its innocent yes shes our babygirl but shes going to grow up let her be dont embarrass her i swear ill fight you

emiliano: fine I'll be nice mayas a different story

maya: thats not fair come on i was already pregnant i used to fight on the playground and i know how much an 8th goes for haha

giovani: haha we know your from it but we know how they are out there haw emiliano

emiliano: how do you think i got my first baby mama bitch still wont let me see my kid and i pay child support shit alright wheres viviana you good we got work tonight can you function?

maricela: its to early for all this i swear and yea ill be good i need to get out do some work i got an appointment to go to anyways

emiliano: alright see you tonight vivi lets go!

she ran downstairs

giovani looked at maricela

maricela: shes 6 going on 16 leave it alone have a good day babygirl i love you

she kissed her head and kissed her

viviana: love you to mami  lets go i cant be late!

giovani kissed maricelas head and then left ..

maya: did i see that right? i thought we hated men?

maricela: i hate him but i love him and even if we go our ways we're stuck to each other so why not try and work things out ya know?

maya: as long as your happy thats all that matters

they got ready and went out ..

maricela: is this place out in the hood? marta?

marta: the best care comes out of these parts you know that this women has helped me threw a lot and i know she'll help you threw it to

maricela: i believe you i just hope i dont scare her

she parked outside of a small house in a quiet hood neighborhood

marta: really all this security needed?

maricela: im known to well in these parts i dont need any attention mostly with them its ok just ignore them haha

they walked in ..

lourdes:marta how are you?

they hugged as they walked up

marta: im good this is maricela my daughter who i was talking to you about last night? mija this is lourdes?

maricela nodded and shook her hand

lourdes: i know shes not your birth mother but i know your story come come make yourselves at home look how cute this lil one is

maya smiled as she tickled javi

maricela: thank you for seeing me in such short notice?

lourdes: dont stress it you guys sit down maricela follow me come on to a back room

she nodded and followed her to a dark back room where she had herbs hanging from the ceiling a bed laid out with candles around it..

lourdes: she told me you where having some pains and where told about masses?

maricela: yea on my ovaries but i dont know how long ive had them but what is all this?

lourdes: i do limpias i feel a lot of darkness and negativity around you a lot of sadness and stress lay down relax and just release breath it'll all be ok

maricela: how does that help my masses though?

lourdes: i have some natural teas that will help lets start with this its ok your fine

maricela nodded nervously as she started to wave smoke around her ..

maricela: if its weed you should've just told me haha

lourdes: there's that laugh .. you have a lot of mother trauma i can sense it

maricela: i dont martas

lourdes: i know the truth its ok speak release it .. this women is holding you back mija?

maricela: how can she if shes dead?

lourdes: she can be gone but she can be near do you know how she died she might've never crossed over?

maricela got quiet and took a deep breath

maricela: i killed her years ago after years and years of abuse as early as i can remember i was being beat at 5 years old my mother never loved me she pushed me to snap and i snapped that night and stabbed her until she stopped screaming i can still hear those screams till this day

lourdes looked at her

maricela: and her name was lourdes to