La Santa Muerte

Head up be strong

they drove to the school

maricela: wait here im gonna go get her and take her to to get an ice cream is security around?

he nodded

giovani: always on alert go .. i love you

maricela: love you too ..

she got down and saw her babygirl running to her as the class was let go .. her bright lil smile filled her with sadness

viviana: mami!!

she laughed as she hugged her

mariclea: where you good?

viviana: hhm wheres tata did he come?

she got serious

maricela: come on lets go get some ice cream and talk ok

vivana: ok mami

she held her hand and they walked towards the ice cream man .. maricela let her choose whatever ice cream she wanted .. the man looked at her frightened

maricela; take the money old man your ok

man: who knew you would be a mother

maricela: lets see if your not begging for yours later tonight

his eyes went wide as he walked away

she sat down with viviana and watched her eat her ice cream as she looked around

maricela: vivi i love you you know that? so does your daddy? and tia joci

she nodded

viviana: and my tata

maricela: hhm he loved you the most .. baby

viviana: wheres tata mommy? i miss him? i wanna see him? when is he coming back?

she pulled her close and cleaned the ice cream off her cheeks

maricela: tata .. tata is .. hes in heaven baby

she looked at her confused

maricela: he had a bad accident and passed away but before he went he told me to tell you he loved you so so much and to hug you tight for him

she shook her head

maricela: vivi im sorry but he isn't coming back tata is in heaven now not in pain but hes watching over you babygirl

she looked at her confused

viviana: no i want him here?

maricela: i know i do to .. i do but hes not coming back hes gone but we're going somewhere where we can visit him soon

viviana: no i want him here now?! mommy!

she hugged her as she broke down crying and fighting her maricela hugged her

maricela: im sorry baby ..

viviana: no!!

giovani: babe?

she turned viviana pushed herself away and viviana ran to him he picked her up and hugged her as she cried

giovani: im sorry babygirl ..

viviana: i want him here.. i wanna see him?

he looked at her and wiped her tears away

giovani: hes in heaven watching over you baby its ok .. i miss him to

she hugged him and cried he looked at maricela

maricela; i need a smoke now huh .. lets go

he nodded and they left

maricela: what i tell you you would be her comfort ..

giovani: i didn't want it to be like this you could've let me tell her?

maricela: no i don't want her to have it against you and plus your the more lovable one babe ..

she looked at her phone and sighed

giovani: your not going back out there not tonight she needs you?

maricela: ill put her down for the night and javi then ill go martas here its all good don't worry

she walked away he followed her

giovani: listen to me maricela your not going

she turned and looked at him

maricela: and why not? haw? i got things to do i cant get behind im not killing them don't worry

giovani: mari please

maricela: whats wrong? you know i have to clean up before we leave for cali? i cant just disappear im .. im even thinking of just getting rid of alonso once and for all and running it myself but then i huh ill be fine ok i need a night out

giovani: wait wait a night out? what? all this to much or something?

maricela: im talking about running a whole cartel and your worried i wanna go out for a night? do you not remember what i witnessed? you don't think it replays in my dam head every second of the day the anger is flowing threw my dam veins im angry i love motherhood but im not ok gio im not

he sighed and nodded

giovani: you could've just told me? but i don't want you out alone i don't trust alonso at all im going along like old times

maricela: its not that easy .. ill get her to bed go get ready

he nodded and they went there ways .. she walked up to vivianas bedroom

maricela: i brought you something baby

she turned and put down her dolls and ran to her

maricela: a picture of you and your tata so you can always have him with you ...

she took the picture frame and hugged it tight and ran to her bed

maricela: lets put it on your dresser?

viviana: no i want it here with me ..

she put it next to her as she got into bed

maricela: ok baby i love you ok and remember if you ever wanna talk to him just look to the stars or clouds and talk to him he's always listening

she nodded as she cleaned her tears

maricela; don't cry baby you have to be strong ok? that's what tata would've wanted i love you

viviana: i love you too mami

she did the sign of the cross and put her night light on and walked out and went to check on lil javi

marta; hes out cold for the night hes such a sweet baby boy

she nodded

marta: is everything ok? giovani asked me to stay for the night?

maricela: work i have to go back out but um yea im ok ill be ok thank you marta ..

she hugged her as she broke down

marta: no no come on head up no crying

maricela: it just hurts .. we where so happy doing good i don't understand.. then to see who did this shit i could've prevented it but i couldn't protect him i ..

marta: he was protecting you and his grandson i know gio would've done it for his son .. as sad as it is this had to happen im sorry mija like you told vivi to be strong now you have to be strong make him proud

she nodded and hugged her .. she kissed her babyboys head and walked out

giovani: you ready?

maricela: you don't have to go

giovani: say what you want i wont let you out alone ever again

she nodded and they left ..