Missing (One Direction)

Chapter 36

Authors Note (If you don't feel like reading the note read the bold italics)

I am finally back some what on schedule! Just a warning it probably won't last too long. Also I WILL BE EDITING MISSING ONCE IT IS OVER, MORE THINGS WILL BE ADDED AND IT WON'T BE AS UNORGANIZED! Just wanted to make that clear it will be some what different so if you like you can reread it as I edit it because lets face it this book needs it! Also big news CHAPTER 40 WILL BE THE EPILOUGE! So that leaves 4 more chapters and then Missing is complete.

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Kaley's POV (Sunday May 10th)

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! .... I rolled over on the bed and quickly grabbed my phone swiping my finger over the screen trying to make the obnoxious noise stop. After multiple tries my finger finally swiped over the right thing and turn the loud alarm off. I look to my side jealous of the guy laying next me. Niall didn't even stir throughout the whole alarm fiasco. I grumpily get out of bed and walk over to the shower making sure to grab my undergarments and my outfit for the day. It was noon and I have to leave the flat at 1:30 to get to the restaurant by two for the late lunch Violet set up. I turned the shower on before stripping down and jumping in the hot water. After washing my body with my coconut body wash I finished by washing my hair with the matching coconut shampoo. I made my way out of the shower and quickly wrapped my towel around me before I froze. Finally gaining the courage to release my towel I hastily put my black high-waisted shorts and muscle tank crop top after my undergarments. Since I don't have any acne and honestly don't need any cover-up or anything like that I moved on to my eyes. I filled in my eyebrows and put on some mascara to finish my look. Looking at my phone I noticed it was already one, so I quickly curled my hair in loose ringlets. After I was done I slid on a pair of black toms and grabbed my purse throwing my phone inside with my wallet. Before leaving I wrote and note telling Niall I left and where I was going then got in the car and raced to where we were eating. I made it a little late, so I went inside and walked over to where Violet told me everyone was sitting. Taking my seat next Violet I noticed she had ordered for me knowing exactly what I would've wanted. Everyone had food in front of them except Violet which made me shoot a questioning look towards her. Catching on Violet told me she ate before she came because she forgot about lunch. I didn't believe her, this was just adding on to the rest of her mysterious appetite; mostly her lack of. I ignored it pushing it off until later. I had to talk to everyone else about this because what she is doing isn't good. Before we knew it, it was 4:15 and we all made our way to our cars to get to the dress shop. We got to the shop 15 minute before our appointment just like we were supposed too. The owner of the shop came over to us and handed us each some wine. The lady helping us, who learned was named Veronica had the bridesmaids go first. Everyone's dresses fit perfectly except Eleanor's. Eleanor need her dress to be tightened just a bit. Next, Violet needed to try on her wedding dress. Violet came out of the dressing room and asked me to zip her, which I did happily. Almost everyone gasped when Violet released the top of he dress and it fell straight to the floor. Everyone's face turned into a horrified expression except Violet's which had a smile on it. Violet was 135 pounds which is a great weight for being 5'7 and a model. That was her weight last time we came for a fitting, which was in March. Veronica had Violet step on the scale they had and once again everyone gasped. Violet weighed 101 which is lighter than the average weight for someone who is 5'0 . At 5'4 most of us weighed 115 which is more than Vi right now. Violet hopped off the scale with a wide smile on her face. She lost almost 35 pounds which is 75% of her body weight. This is extremely bad and it isn't healthy. She is eating probably less than 500 calories which is 1,000 less than she should be. Emma even started crying and Doniya called Zayn. Before she could hang up the phone I told her to ask Zayn what she had eaten today with him. After she hung up the phone you could see the huge frown on her face. "Zayn said they woke up late, so she didn't have breakfast. Then when he asked her if she wanted lunch she said no because she was eating with us." Doniya repeated everything Zayn told her only to make my frown grow. I knew something was wrong, but I didn't think it was this bad. How did we not notice this when she was wearing her bikini. All she is, is bone. How didn't any of us notice her weird eating habits. All I could feel was disappointment in myself and sadness that Violet would do this to herself. Finally getting back to business Veronica re-measured Violet, but before we left I told her to make it a bit bigger. No matter what before her wedding Violet was going to gain weight. I don't care if we have to shove food down her throat, but what she is doing isn't healthy. We finally left the store, all of use leaving with frowns on our faces and deep in thought. Violet was the only one who looked truly happy which worried us all even more. Once we all got to our cars I sat down and took my phone out. I speedily typed a group text "My place ASAP" and hit send making sure I sent it to everyone but Violet. I reversed my car and made my way to Niall and I's flat ready to really discuss the problem on our hands. I pulled into our drive-way making sure to avoid all the other cars. I literally ran up the steps to the door to get in the house faster. I walked in to see everyone here and mentally applauded them for being on time. Before I could even mutter a word Zayn's loud ringtone went off. Zayn slid out his phone and answered it ignoring our glares. All at once Zayn's face went pale and everyone started freaking out. Time seemed to freeze and all I could hear was Zayn say four small words that made my heart beat ten times faster; "Violet's in the hospital". Time seemed to start again and it was all utter chaos. All I did was stand there frozen, was like my feet were stuck ground and there was nothing I could do about it. I couldn't comprehend what was happening, or what my body was doing. I found myself in the passenger seat of someone's car, and on our way to the hospital. Ten minutes later we were all rushing to the emergency room. The only ones who were allowed to see her right away were Zayn because he is her fiancé and Emma because she said she is Vi's sister which she technically is. Rest of us had to wait until they came back out to even know what was happening. After an agonizing long ten minutes both Zayn and Emma came out of hospital room with smiles on their faces, which brought relief to us all. Finally, Zayn spoke "Violet is going to be fine, she passed out because she hasn't been eating. The doctors are feeding her through the tube while she is sleeping because of this." I finally let out the air I didn't know I was holding and let out a sigh of relief. "She's going to be ok.... everything is all right" I just kept repeating in my head. Now that I knew Violet was ok my body registered my surrounding completely. I was sitting in an uncomfortable chair and Niall was sitting next to me rubbing my back. Emma's face still hasn't regained it's natural tan color, where as Zayn was no longer pale. There was his little voice in the back of my mind that kept telling me how wrong I was and that nothing was ok. I knew it was true but I didn't want to admit it. Everyone was fine and Violet was going to ok. Violet is ok. I couldn't take just sitting there with everyone. I shot up out of my seat and started walking. I knew everyone was probably confused, but I didn't look back. Not even knowing it my feet lead me to Violet's room. I didn't even think about it I just walked in. I didn't hear the nurse yelling at me to get out nor her threats to call security. I didn't feel the impact when I feel down on the floor. All I could see was Violet, skinny, broken, anorexic, Violet laying in a hospital bed. Nothing was ok. I didn't feel the tears running down my cheeks nor did I feel security picking me up and taking me out of the room. I let them too, I didn't know what to do. Violet was my responsibility ever since we were younger she was my problem. If she wasn't studying I yelled at her, if her outfit was inappropriate I told her. She was my problem and now my problem was laying a hospital bed once again, and this time I didn't even try to stop it. I saw Niall's mouth moving, but I couldn't hear what he was saying, felt security drop me but I didn't feel it. I laid a crumbled mess on the floor, maybe just as broken as the girl laying in the hospital bed I've known since I was little. I knew I had to get up, I was the strong one. The thing was I don't know if I'm as strong as I used to be. I can't believe what I'm doing, this is pathetic I'm not the one that's in the hospital bed. I finally stood up and wiped the tears I still didn't feel on my cheeks away. Niall wrapped an arm around my waist that I still didn't feel, and then started saying words that I still couldn't hear. I sat down on the chair in the waiting room once again. Eleanor came up to me and started talking, but all I could lip read was the word hot. She then handed me a cup of coffee. My hands and tongue were numb to the heat. I just sat there staring and sipping my coffee. I wanted to tell everyone I was fine, but when I opened my mouth no words came out. It was like unable to say the words no matter how hard I tried. I knew I wasn't fine, and maybe that was why I couldn't say I was. Everyone today has heard enough "I'm fines" even if they are true or not. It finally seemed like my senses were coming back and I could hear again, and I actually wanted to. I heard Niall whispering in my ear "I love you", I could feel his embrace around me. I could feel the heat radiating off my hot cup off coffee and I could feel how this chair hurt my back. I didn't hear because I didn't want to hear people telling me it's going to be okay, and I didn't want to feel people trying to comfort me because I shouldn't be the one getting comforted, but I'm human and that makes me selfish and unable to turn off my emotions even though I wish I could sometimes. I know I have to be strong for Violet, but Violet isn't here right now and for once I want someone to comfort me. I need someone to be here for me and for once I don't mind if I look weak. I let Niall pull me into his lap and I let him quietly sing for me. I was calm and I knew I wasn't actually being weak I was being strong for showing someone I'm actually human and cracked. I'm not broken just a bit cracked and maybe it's time I let someone glue the crack instead of letting it get bigger. I put my head on Niall's chest and let him be the strong one knowing he can handle it. He always could I just didn't want to be weak. For now everything was okay, maybe later it won't be but right now in this moment I feel okay.