Destructing The Flame's Deception

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

Sometimes I ask myself, why was I born? I never wished to be born, that's why I don't get people blaming me for why I was born when I didn't choose to be born.

I hate myself for being alive. My mother could've just aborted me than to let me live in this messy world where I don't even know what my real identity is.

I hate that I always doubt myself. I hate that I am hating myself because of the people around me.

My non-biological parents were abusing us while they were trying to hide our real identity. The people around me… were throwing hate on me and telling me that I shouldn't be born in this world.

I smiled painfully. I wished I was never born. The world could've been better if I'm not here. The people would not hate me when I'm not here.

It hurts to know that even if I'm just breathing, people tend to hurt and say painful words to me.

Why? Why me? What did I even do? Is it really because I was born? Then why was I born when the world was cruel to me?

Hearing those words from Silas's mother really changed my life. It was not just a simple word, but it was a painful word that haunted my heart— like something just stabs on my chest.

Dumating si grandma kaya natigilan ang nanay ni Silas sa pananakit sa'kin. Silas was also behind his mother, trying to stop her but he couldn't do anything.

I'm nothing but a disaster that came into everyone's life.

Kumbaga… para akong isang bagyo na kinatatakutan ng lahat.

"Stop hurting her, Luciana. She has nothing to do with this mess." mahinahong sabi ni Grandma na siyang nakabasag sa katahimikan.

Luciana— Silas's mother just looked at her, then she laughed really loud.

"She has nothing to do with this? You know why I hated this girl so bad! Siya ang sumira sa lahat! Siya ang sumira sa… pagmamahalan namin ni Rio!" 

I was shocked, so shocked that I cannot even process what I just heard right now. I looked at Silas and I caught him looking at me, he seemed so shocked too.

Napaawang ang labi ko. So the past that they were talking about is… Luciana and my dad were past lovers before? Because that's what I understand from what I heard.

"When Rio chose to marry Adira because they had a child— which is this woman in front of me, my world started to crumble. Rio broke up with me and chose Adira— even if he didn't love her at all." Luciana said.

Napailing ako. Unti unting pumatak ang mga luha ko. No… this can't be. Ayokong maniwala. No, this was just my dream.

"Grandma, please tell me she was lying." I whispered to her.

Grandma looked at me with so much pity. Dahan dahan akong umiling.

"It's not a lie, you bitch. Ikaw… kayo ng kuya Dylan mo ang dahilan ng lahat ng 'to!" 

"You still love my papa?" I asked her.

Hindi agad siya nakasagot.

Kaya pala nakita ko si papa na nakatingin kay Luciana kanina sa venue. That explains why.

But I still couldn't believe this. Hindi talaga mahal ni papa si mama? Na pinakasalan niya lang ito dahil nabuo ako? Dahil nabuo kami ni kuya Dylan?

Gusto kong takpan ang tainga ko. I think I can't bear to hear more about their past.

"Yes, Oceana." she calmly said. "But I have no choice now, we both have our own family. But… he will always have a special place in my heart."

Mas lalo akong umiling. Hindi ako makapaniwala. This is really hard to bear. This must be so hard for Silas, too. This is so hard for us.