Destructing The Flame's Deception

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

"You don't need to hide the pain…" he whispered. "The pain won't go away if you'll keep it by yourself. We have our freedom to express it, anytime and anywhere." 

I was still crying while hugging me. Natigilan ako sandali kaya umatras ako nang kaunti palayo sa kanya. I suddenly felt embarrassed— that he witnessed me in this estate where I am crying like a river.

Nagpadala yata ako mas'yado sa emosyon ko dahil bigla ko nalang siyang niyakap. For sure he was really shocked. I didn't intend to hug him. It was just my emotions that burst when I saw him.

I needed warmth, and I found that warmth in his arms.

"Makikinig ako, Ocean. Handa akong makinig sa bawat sasabihin mo. I will listen until you finish. If you can't continue… I will understand and will give you time to think and to breathe." Silas told me.

Para bang mas lalo akong naiyak sa sinabi niya. Umupo ako sa couch at ganoon din ang ginawa niya. He was still staring at my bruises and wounds. Alam kong marami siyang katanungan, pero mas pinili niyang ako mismo ang magsabi ng kusa no'n sa kanya.

I breathe heavily. Silas just nodded at me, urging me to say something. Magaan naman ang loob ko sa kanya. I am comfortable with him, and I can open up to him anytime.

"These bruises and wounds… My parents did this to me." I said while my voice was shaking, halos sinukin na din ako.

Silas immediately got me a glass of water. Ininuman ko muna iyon bago ako magpatuloy. He was shocked when I told him that it was my parents doing.

"You can't believe that my parents did this, right? Kahit sino… alam kong hindi maniniwala… dahil sino ba namang magulang ang handang saktan nang ganito ang kanilang anak? But in my case, I'm not their real child." I whispered.

His lips parted. "What do you mean?"

"Would you still be able to accept me if I told you that I'm adopted?" 

My voice really shakes hard when I tell him that. Hindi naging madali sa aking sabihin iyon sa kanya. I take my time just to tell him those words, and hopefully, sana ay matanggap niya pa rin ako.

Kasi ako… hindi ko matanggap na ampon lang ako. Hindi ko matanggap na ang mga taong kinalakihan ko, ang mga taong nagbigay ng pera, pagkain sa akin ay hindi ko pala totoong magulang.

Should I be grateful that I became Caiazzo even if I'm adopted? Because I am not grateful to be a Caiazzo at all.

Napatingin ako kay Silas, tahimik lang siya. Halatang binabasa ang emosyon ko. Kalaunan, tipid akong ngumiti sa kanya.

"I accept you for who you are, whatever your surname is, if you're Caiazzo or not, whatever you did in your past, and so on." he said.

I swallowed hard. Natameme ako sa sinabi niya.

"I am proud of you for opening it to someone like me," he smiled.

Napatingin ako sa kanya. Bumuhos muli ang luha ko kaya agad na pinawi ni Silas ang mga luha sa gilid ng mga mata ko.

No one ever knows how I feel and how I am grateful that Silas was always here by my side. He's willing to listen to me, every time. He always makes me smile and makes sure that I'm always happy. He always makes sure that I'm doing fine. And he will never forget to tell me some words that will surely make me alive.

He awoke my dead inside, soul, and heart.

And I am— I will always be grateful and thankful that I met this kind of man.

"Sinubukan kong pumuntang police station para magsampa ng reklamo sa magulang ko, pero anong ginawa ng mga pulis? Mas pinaniig nila ang pera kaysa sa sinampa kong reklamo sa magulang ko. That's how cruel our country is." kwento ko sa kanya.