Destructing The Flame's Deception

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

I'm not shocked to hear that from Silas's mother. I knew for a long time that she really hated me a lot, and that's because of my parent's mess. But I don't know why I got hurt to hear those words that were meant to me.

I shouldn't get hurt… but why am I getting hurt? Is it because it was from his mother? Is it because his mother likes Avhril and she hates me?

Pumikit ako nang mariin. I was still hurting. I am currently healing but it's as if my wound got bleed again. I've already moved on about people hating and avoiding me, but to hear those words again… really stung my heart.

"You will never get anything from Ocean except from danger and mess." I heard Silas's mother tell him.

I gripped my fist.

"You did your great job to avoid that woman," 

I swallowed hard.

"She's nothing but a pesticide for our family. She's nothing but a dangerous animal to us." 

"Ma, that's too much." narinig kong sabi ni Silas.

"It's not too much. I'm just telling you the truth."

And after that, I didn't bother to listen to them. I busy myself studying while an earphone is on my ear to avoid hearing them. I don't want to listen to them, I don't want to hurt myself. I don't want to torture myself anymore.

Nang kumatok si Silas sa kwarto, ibig sabihin no'n ay wala na ang mother niya. Tumayo agad ako para buksan iyon at agad na ngumiti sa kanya. Mapait naman siyang ngumiti sa akin. I don't want him to feel that I heard them earlier.

I used to pretend that I was fine, that I was okay, that I didn't hear anything.

Sometimes, pretending is fine as long as you're okay with it. It all takes time. If you're already healed enough, that's the time you can stop from pretending.

"Mabuti nalang hindi ako nahuli ng mama n'yo," dinaan ko nalang sa tawa ang lahat.

Nakita kong pinagmasdan lang ako ni Silas at bahagyang tumango sa akin. It seems like he's reading my emotions. Nakipagtitigan lang ako sa kanya para hindi niya mahalatang hindi ako okay.

"Okay ka lang ba?" It hit me hard when he asked me that question.

I nodded immediately. "Oo naman. Uhm, I'm already tired and I'm going to sleep already."

Tumango siya. Noong una, mukhang hindi pa siya kumbinsido pero sa huli ay pinaniwalaan naman niya ako. Nang maisarado ko ang pinto, agad akong napahawak sa dibdib ko.

It was beating so fast, not because of excitement, but because of pain. Napaupo ako sa sahig habang nakahawak sa buhok ko. Here we go again. When something really triggers me, I come back to this pace again.

Kinabukasan, medyo magaan na ang pakiramdam ko. Sabay kaming kumain ng umagahan nila Silas at kuya Alas. The atmosphere among us was really fresh, na para bang matagal na nila akong nakakasalamuha rito. Magaan din ang loob ko sa kanila. Probably because they treat me right and kind.

"It's my birthday tomorrow! I was planning on treating the both of you. Where should we go?" Kuya Alas told us while we're having breakfast.

"Kahit saan," sambit ko.

"Sige, saan ba 'yang 'kahit saan'?" Kuya Alas chuckled.

Silas cleared his throat. "Just treat us anywhere,"

"What about we watch a movie? Shall we?"

Agad akong tumango. That's a great idea. Kaya naman nang nag-agree ako, nag-agree na din si Silas. Nang dumating ang kinabukasan, agad kaming nag-prepare para sa birthday ni kuya Alas.