Our Destiny Was An Accident

Chapter 27: Han's confession

Amy wanted to cry a river to let out the pain she is going through but why is it so that the moment Han patted her head and rubbed her back gently, suddenly she attained the tranquility. She felt like this is the comfort she craved since she started living alone. She knew that Han has comforted her like this couple of times but strangely its so familiar that this nostalgic feeling make her doubt that she is unaware of something that she should know. She trusts her gut and asks him directly, how many times he has comforted her that she is unaware of, while locking eyes with him and wrapping her arm round his waist so that he couldn't skip answering it. He actually tried to avoid the question by changing the topic but failed to fool her. He requests to let him go by saying that there is no such thing but Amy is determined. Han has to give up to her adamant behaviour and tells her that she used to suffer from nightmare. He uncovers the whole truth regarding PTSD, its therapy, the side effects as well as prognosis. He reveals that its not a usual fear that she thought till date instead it can turn fatal if she neglect the precautionary measures. Han was worried that this may upset her, however, she took it very lightly and move forward to resolve her another query.
Amy: "When did you started having feelings for me?"
Han is speechless and struggles to find an escape but he is trapped in her arms. She continues to make him uncomfortable with her beaming eyes so much that Han decides to quench her every curiosity one by one, only if she let him go and have a proper conversation while sitting face to face.
She agrees and Han muster up the courage to confront her for once and all. Han once had a split of thought to confess his crime in front of her but what if it breaks her heart and she recalls the incident and goes in shock. He would rather bury it in his heart forever the secret that is now insignificant for her. (She told him already that she decided to let Allah be the judge of that accident that she could vaguely recall. "If that was a mistake then let it pass but if the person has committed several crimes like that then Allah is the best judge of all." She commented. )
He just expresses his feelings that he always found himself being attracted to her whether it was her way of asking questions, her blunt answers or her smile. She captivated his mind since she entered his life, he added, and continued that he mistook his feelings as his concern for her until he heard her crying inside the trial room. He described that he felt his heart being clasped, wrenched and torn in pieces and he had tears in his eyes in place of the blood that his heart was bleeding which confirmed for him that it was not just a concern but a deep seated love for her that his heart is crying so hard in sync with her sob. She felt enthralled by his words, discovering the fact that he hided his true feelings from her for so long. Han explains that like her, he too confessed it on the very first day, but she was too naive to understand it by then and when she learnt about love, she was already struggling from the emotional trauma, so he tried not to stir up her already disturbed emotions.
Amy had no words to express how much she is falling deep in love with him with his every revelation and declaration of his feelings for her that all she could do is hold his hand in an attempt to fill the emptiness he had been through all this time. They probably has hold each other's hand the whole night if Amy's stomach had not grumble to disturb their romantic phase. They laugh off and starts preparing dinner. Though it wasn't their first time cooking together, however, the first in forever like a love birds to enjoy something together. Han keeps trying to tease and disturb her in order to prepare his own special dish for her while Amy is trying to focus on making something special for Han. She pushes him aside, ordering him to complete his task and help her and teases him back. It had always been fun making cuisines together but this new feeling that just sparkled added extra flavour to their happiness. 
Han set the table to make their first supper as a couple memorable and romantic. They both enjoyed their dinner and its time to sleep.
Amy saw her blanket and pillow in Han's room and they sleep like before. Amy tells Han that she always missed him when she felt lonely or tired with headache. Han being uncomfortable here asks Amy if she is not feeling weird sleeping together since they have confessed their feelings. Amy turns it down plainly refusing anything strange with it. Instead, she professes that she trust him and know that he will never betray her. She highlights that its not their first time sleeping together and warns him not to think otherwise and let her sleep peacefully, adding that its been a while she felt at home. When Han doubted his fate while staring at her, thinking if its real or his dream, just then, Amy pinches his nose saying that its real and he is not dreaming. Han wonders if he spoke his thought aloud but Amy clearifies that she could tell it by his continued stare on her and commands to stop it and go to sleep while offering her hand saying that he can hold it to believe she is near when he closes his eyes. At last they went asleep holding hand together.
Next morning, Amy finds herself under Han's blanket hugging him tightly. She pushes him, in shock, to the ground screaming how dare to come closer without her consent. Han feels offended and annoyed on Amy's action and tells her the truth that it was her who sneaked inside his blanket and hugged him when he, on the other hand, maintained patience and dignity struggling to retain his own emotions and all he get as a reward is the accuse of being a pervert. He passes her a cynical smile while getting up. Amy looks at the blanket and found herself under his blanket and not the vice versa, also remembering how tightly she was hugging him while his arm barely touched her shoulder proving his innocence. Amy with an embarrassed face apologises and moves out his room swiftly.