it has been almost 9 months since you broke up with niall and things were finally starting to get better for you. you began to be more happy and have actually started dating again. your breakup with niall was very very hard for you. you were absolutely heartbroken. you had found out from a friend that he lied about something very big throughout your entire relationship. you of course talked it out and he apologized but he truly hurt you. you thought you could trust him and you thought that he told you everything but because he lied about what happened at the beginning of your relationship and didnt tell you throughout your 2 years of being together, you couldnt help but think "what else is he hiding" and "could you truly trust that he'd be telling the truth about things in the future".
it was a very tough decision but you decided it was best for you to at least take a break from him. you took time away from him and thought about everything for a long time. you wanted to give him another chance but you were terrified that he'd hurt you again and you never wanted to feel what you felt ever again. it was very painful and you spent many many nights crying yourself to sleep and you were terrified that you would experience that again if you get back together with him, so you decided it was best for not only your mental health but also for niall if you both went your separate ways. you wanted him to find a girl that he would never lie to and would find it hard to lie to because he would love her so much he just couldnt lie to her.
but in present day, youre happy now and have gone on a few dates with this one super cute guy and you really really really like him. his name is cody and he is in college, majoring in finance and things have been going great between you two so far. you guys went putt putting yesterday and you posted the cutest picture of him on your Instagram story and got so many responses from your friends and family talking all about how cute he was and how happy they were for you.
you did get one response from someone that made your heart fall to your stomach. when you saw him name pop up on your phone again, you didnt know how to react. it was late at night and you were just about to go to bed when niall texted you. you hadnt talked to niall in months and you were suspicious as to why he was texting you right now. you were terrified he was going to tell you he missed you and then it would ruin your oncoming relationship with cody because you'd still be working things out with your ex.
you hesitantly opened the text from niall and sighed when you saw a huge paragraph of words. it read, "hey im sorry if this is bad timing but i really just wanted to get this out before i chicken out again. but i just wanted to let you know how much i miss you and how much regret i have. i know ive told you a million times that im sorry and promise i would never lie to you about anything again, but i understand why you need space. but this just sucks so bad because y/n i love you so much. so fucking much and it kills me to watch you move on. i saw the picture of that guy on your story today and it broke me. ive tried to move on i really have, but everything comes back to you and no matter how many dates i go on, every night when i go to sleep all i can think about is you. i cant get you off my mind, youre all i think about day and night and i regret everything that has happened so much more everyday. im not asking you to give me another chance but i just want you to know how sincerely sorry i am and how much i miss and love you."
all you could say to yourself is "fuck thats great"
