Sign by the Cumulus (Cloud Series #3) - COMPLETED

Cumulus 35

Chapter 35
RECOVER

My heart feels like being stabbed by sharp daggers. Nanunuot sa kasulok-sulukan ang sakit ng mga salita ni Third. Naisip ko kung gaano rin kasakit iyon sa kaniya noong ipinagtabuyan ko siya.

His anger is understandable. Pinaalis ko siya ng labag sa kanyang loob, pinagsabihan ng masasakit na salita, pinagsarhan ng pinto at hindi ipinagtanggol kay Mama at Papa. I understand because that time, I was angry too. I have nothing on my mind but to push him away, even if I have to hurt him.

Rino looked at me when we're already outside. "I'm sorry. He's still recovering. Maybe he's still emotionally unstable."

Huminga ako nang malalim at tumango. "Ayos lang."

"Please understand him more. He doesn't want to go home so he's mad that he's seeing you here after you pushed him away."

"I understand, Rino. I'll visit regularly, don't worry."

As I did. Pinalipas ko lang ang ilang oras at bumalik ulit ako sa kwarto niya. Kyla was already there talking to him when I arrived. Nawala ang ngiti niya at napatayo nang makita ako.

"What are you doing here?" she expressed as soon as I entered the room.

Binalewala ko siya at dumiretso kay Third na seryosong nakatingin sa akin. I smiled at him and put down the foods I brought in the table. Inabot ko ang kamay niya at marahang hinaplos iyon.

"How are you feeling? Are you hungry?"

Hindi niya inalis ang seryosong tingin sa akin. I have the feeling that he really doesn't want me here. Genuinely.

"I told you not to come here," he said intently. "You didn't understand it?"

I swallowed the pain in my heart.

"I don't want to see you. Leave us alone. Can you see that we're talking?"

Bakit ganoon? I know he isn't intentionally spatting back the words I've said to him because I know he's angry and he meant it pero bakit parang sinasadya?

And he's throwing back those words when Kyla can hear everything. My heart hurts so bad. He's hurting me so bad.

Natahimik ako. Binalingan ko ang pagkain niya sa mesa at iyon na lang ang pinagkaabalahan. It's already noon and it's time for his lunch. Gusto kong ihanda ang mga pagkain niya pero hindi ako sigurado sa pwede niyang kainin. I was about to ask him but Kyla was already holding a tray with a healthy foods and soup. She served it carefully like she was so used of talking care of him.

Nanatili ako sa kinaroroonan. Kyla's very serious when she feeds Third carefully, and Third being cooperative in taking the spoon. Gusto kong may gawin pero hindi ko alam kung ano. Dahan-dahan, lumapit ako sa kanila.

"Can I, please?" I asked Kyla for her tray.

Nilingon niya ako at malamig na tiningnan. I am serious and desperate. Ibinalik niya ang atensyon sa tray at muling pinakain si Third, binalewala ako.

"Kyla, please?"

"You can just leave and go home if you have nothing to do in here." Third looked at me coldly.

Napalingon sa kaniya si Kyla. Hindi ko naman alam ang mararamdaman ko. I know I am fighting this now but somehow, the pain that constantly attacked my heart feels like the sign of losing this.

Tama bang gawin ko 'to? Sumugod ako rito na magulo ang lahat. I didn't even know the consequences of my actions, basta gusto ko lang siyang makita. Gusto kong ilaban 'to ngayon. Kung sakaling hindi ito magtagumpay, wala akong pagsisisi.