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"Did you fuck him"he said as he leaned against the wall and stomped out his cigarette.
"I sure did "I said lying through my teeth just to get a reaction out of him.
He cocked his head to the side as a devious grin started to form on his face.
"Y...
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It's been four weeks.
She started to pull away from me, slowly but surely. It wasn't a big pull, it was a hesitant pull. When we got back to New York , everything just changed. Short responses, barely even any time to hang out, and she would barely look me in my eyes when we did talk .
"Ashanti what the fuck is wrong with you?" I ask as she answers the phone." What are you talking about?"
She's playing dumb. She's been playing dumb ever since we got back. I thought we were good, but I guess not. I guess she couldn't handle the pressure. She should just be honest with me and tell me instead of lying.
The worst thing you could do, is lie to me.
" You know exactly what the fuck I am talking about. You said that you were going to listen to your heart and not your head so what is going on ?" I repeat my question as I began to lose my cool.
" I can't do this right now Alessandro , I really can't." She sounded different, it was like the last few months hasn't happened and she's back to hating me.
"You can't do this conversation or you can't do us?" I ask , praying deep down that she was going to choose the former.
" I don't know. I really don't know how I can trust anything you say anymore right now. Everyone that I love has been lying to me for years." She sounds like she's struggling to hold back tears as she speaks into the phone .
" I've been ignoring my parents and Khalid. I just need space and time to think."
Just like that yet another women walks out of my life. " Alessandro," she calls out " I just need time to figure everything out right now. I promise it's not about you ."
"Take all the time you need Smith, maybe i'll wait around, maybe I won't," and then I hang up .
Shit. Shit . Shit
"Why did I fucking say that? " I pull at my hair as I pace around the room. " Why the fuck did I say that?"
I was a fucking idiot. I wasn't going to run off and sleep with someone else. It would hurt me too much to do that to her . If it was space she wanted , then I would give her space.
This information was a lot to take in and I know that she has a lot to process right now. So, I'll wait for her, whenever she's ready.
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