UNBROKEN

SIXTY FIRST INSTALMENT

As the door opened I felt it pull along the carpet and a slight creak which is something I didn't realise when going in to the doctors office. It's funny how you notice the little things at a time like this. I walked with my head down to the counter to hand in my form. I was wishing that they would get me to stay there for as long as possible to do something so I didn't have to face Adam, anything at all not to lift my head and meet his eyes but no such luck. I stood there for what felt like an age until I finally got the courage to turn around. As I slowly turned I notice Adam stand up and my eyes met his.

What's wrong Emily? You've been crying! Are you ok?" He asked showing concern. I looked at the ground and my eyes welled up again. I felt his pointer finger touch my chin and lift my head so my eyes met his again.

"No matter what it is we can face it" he said again. I looked at him and spat out quietly

"I'm pregnant!" It was almost an embarrassed tone. I looked at his face to see the reaction but there wasn't one. His face stayed the same, it didn't change at all. He put his arm around my shoulder and said

"we can chat later" then he smiled. We walked to the car. Adam opened the door for me and then closed it gently behind me. On the drive home when we stopped at a set of traffic lights Adam said

"it will be good to have a baby Adam" then he smiled. It lifted my spirits a little. I thought to myself 'Everything is going to be OK'. My thoughts went to the future which never happened for me. I thought of how Ava would be with a little baby brother or sister. Finally things where going to be OK.

When we pulled in to the driveway Adam got out first and opened the door for me yet again. He put his arm around me and walked to the door. I was feeling a lot better. This is not what I expected when I told him. I don't know what I expected but this was not it. Adam opened the door and is walked through as soon as I got one foot inside I heard Ava

"Mummy!!!" She was so excited to see me. I knelt down to give her a hug. I gave her a kiss and hug. She then ran off to play. I walked to out room and got changed in to something comfortable.

As I went to walk out the door I heard voices. I thought it was just Tina and Dave at home but when I got to our lounge room I notice that Powsey was there sitting on the floor with his girlfriend Donna, Tina and Dave and Adam had joined them.

"What did the doctor say Emily?" Tina asked. I looked at Adam and he nodded and said

"we're pregnant". Tina was so excited

"that's fantastic! I'm so excited for you both" she said. Everyone was excited and we chatted for ages. Adam kept patting my tummy and talking to the little one like it was there with us. After a while I decided to make dinner for everyone. Adam offered but I said I was right and I set off to make dinner and get Ava bathed. I sat Ava at the table and fed her then bathed her and then she went to bed. Ava didn't like chilly and I really felt like chilly so she had steak and veggies one of her favourites.

When I had finished cooking I called everyone in and the conversation continued. The boys were teasing saying they couldn't imagine a little Adam running around etc while the girls chatted like girls. After dinner I cleared the table and washed the dishes as everyone else went out the back and smoked some pot. After I had finished they came back inside and went in to the lounge room. The girls chatted with me at the table for a while. When we walked in to the lounge room I heard Adam say

"it would be like killing a kangaroo" as I caught the end of a conversation I asked what they were talking about. Adam looked at me and said

"well when you get rid of this kid it will be just like killing a kangaroo, nothing too it?" (My heart is racing as I write this). I didn't know how to respond but I thought it was just a sick joke, he defiantly couldn't mean that. He had been saying all afternoon that he couldn't wait and now this! I think I just stood there. Tina looked at him and said

"your sick Adam! That's not even funny". Adam laughed it off then they went on with a different conversation but I couldn't shake the heartache I felt.

Did he mean what he said?

Time passed and I don't remember the conversations that followed as my mind just kept playing those words over and over again.

When everyone left we went to bed. When I got in I did say anything and just rolled over to go to sleep. I was confused and scared to ask the question that was playing on my mind. Adam rolled me over on to my back and looked at my tummy. He lifted his hand and placed it gently on my tummy and started to rub.

"Hi there baby Adam, you'll soon be here" he then laid his head on my tummy and fell asleep.

Confused!! Just a little. Well this proved it he was only joking...

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Thank you all for joining in on my life story. This is not easy to write. If you have enjoyed my story so far please feel free to vote by clicking the ⭐️and commenting xx Emily xx