A life of Payne (1D/5SOS) *HEAVEY EDITING*

"I don't want this."

Katie's POV

I couldn't believe it.

This has to be a dream because I was sure that I wasn't stupid enough to let this happen as well as not pick up on it myself. God how stupid can I be?!

Sadly my theory of this being a dream was proven to be false as I didn't pay attention to what I was doing and fell off the couch and onto my butt.

I let out a loud sob at the contact and whimpered straight after as my head rang from the sounds of my crying.

"Sweetheart? Are you still there?" I just managed to hear my mothers desperate words through the phone that I had dropped in the initial shock.

I scrambled to pick it up before carefully placing it to my ear.

"Y-you don't know that for sure! It could be something else!" I didn't mean for my words to be so harsh and bitter but there was no way I wanted to believe the idea of me being pregnant!

There hasn't ever been a point in my life where I wanted children or was clucky over little babies. Truthfully I had a strong dislike for little kids.

They always smelt bad and cried whenever I held them.

"Sorry sweetheart but that's all the signs."

I cried harder at her words as I felt all the happiness inside me crumble, piece by piece.

"It's okay we'll get through this together." My mother tried to soothe me with the sweetest tone to her voice but it just made me more upset.

She must be so disappointed in me.

"I don't want this." I choked out as I tried to explain how I absolutely did not want to become a mother.

I can't imagine I would be any good at it either.

"You're not going to be alone through this. You have me and your father and Liam." I soaked in her words before realizing she had missed one persons name on that list and I hadn't even thought about him once since I was told.

"Oh my god! Calum! Mum I have to tell Calum!" I gasped and stood up too fast making me fall back onto the couch and groan in pain.

"Oh sweetheart." She whispered in a sad tone. Almost like she knew something that I didn't.

"What? He is the father after all and my boyfriend so I have to tell him."

She was quiet, almost too quiet for a minute before she sighed again.

"I think you should hold off from talking to Calum about this for now, and maybe don't tell your brother either. You know how protective he can get over you."

I didn't understand why she didn't want me to tell either of them about this but she seemed to know what she was talking about and I'm a freaking hot mess so I'll take her word for it.

"Okay." I whispered and did my best to calm down my breathing.

"I'll talk to your dad sweetheart, you can both get the next flight back to London and we'll go from there okay?"

"Yeah." I replied flatly and said a quick goodbye before picking up my handbag and trying my best to sneak out of the arena without being seen by anyone, which didn't work out very well.

"Where are you going baby?" Calum asked as he appeared in front of me with a bottle of water in one hand and two pills in the other.

"Oh um I was just going back to the hotel to lay down." I lied through my teeth and cringed with how horrible I felt for lying to him.