Cure Me | Kian Lawley

Chapter 38

I laid with my head smothered by the hotel pillow. Tears, still streaming down my face. I don't know what I've done, but maybe it wasn't the best thing I could have done.

*Flashback* (a/n ooh fancy;))

I set up my camera and took a seat on the end of the bed. I grabbed the guitar that I borrowed from a guest, staying in the hotel, and began recording.

"If you respect me
Don't protect me
You can tell me,
I can handle it
Stop pretending 'cause we're going down

If you let go
Then just let go
It's disrespectful
How you've handled this
Never ending, kinda run around

I lied to my heart 'cause I thought you felt it
You can't light a fire, if the candle's melted
No, you don't have to love me if you don't wanna
Don't act like I mean nothing
But if you're gonna, well, then you better

Unkiss me,
Untouch me
Untake this heart
And I'm missing
Just one thing
A brand new start

Can't erase this,
Can't delete this,
I don't need this,
I can't handle it
I just feel it that you're over us

If I wait here,
If I see you
It won't matter,
What's the point of this?
We're in pieces because you're over us

I lied to my heart 'cause I thought you felt it
You can't light a fire, if the candle's melted
No, you don't have to love me if you don't wanna
Don't act like I mean nothing
But if you're gonna, well, then you better

Unkiss me,
Untouch me
Untake this heart
And I'm missing
Just one thing
A brand new start
So unkiss me
So unkiss me

So, baby, let go
Gotta let go
It's disrespectful
I can't handle this
Never ending, kinda run around

Unkiss me,
Untouch me
Untake this heart
And I'm missing
Just one thing
A brand new start
So unkiss me
So unkiss me
Unkiss me"

I put the guitar down and stared at the camera, tears filling my eyes. My head drops and all I can force out is a whispered "I'm sorry" before I end the video. I don't even edit it before I upload it. I title it "unkiss me-maroon 5 (for Kian)". Like he did for his video.

I watch it slowly upload.

*end of flashback*

When I'm finished crying, well...almost. I get up and read some comments on the video.

"What did he do?"

"Did he break up with you"

"Did you guys break up?"

"Rip #Kassidy"

"Throwing shade like baseballs;)" is from Trevor, which I laugh at a little.

I shut my laptop and my phone starts ringing again, for the 100th time today. It's Kian, like I guessed.

He won't stop. I'm going to have to answer it.

"Cassidy" he says, I can near him crying.

"What kian?" I snap.

"I'm sorry" he whimpers.

"Kian, I can't forgive you for what you did, it really broke my heart. I thought you loved me. I'm having YOUR baby, and you only care about Andrea. I can't believe you" I say back.

"Cassidy, please..I don't know why I did that" he's really crying now.

"Exactly kian. Exactly" I say and hang up.

I feel bad instantly. The phone rings again, it's Kian,

"What" I shout.

"Are you really over us?" He whispers.

"I don't know kian. I'm stressed, and that's not good for the baby. So I'm going to sleep, In this Damn hotel thanks to you" I shout back.

"Don't sleep in a hotel Cass, come back.."

"Why? I don't want to be near you right now"

"You're never going to forgive me, are you?" He asks.

"I said I don't know, goodbye. Kian"

"Cass wai-" I cut him off by hanging up. I turn off my phone and crawl into bed with my laptop and soon fall asleep, even though it's only 7pm.

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A/n pretty boring chapter but, it's my third one in a day so...anyway, love you all, and I'll talk to you next chapter:)